My new boyfriend, who is a new doctor, asked me to get an HIV test. I had it done last week, but I am absolutely freaking out about the results now. Not that I have been sexually reckless or promiscuous in the past, I have been with other men, the majority protected (condom) and 3-4 men were not (don't believe any excessive fluids were exchanged though). I talked to my family doctor about it and he agreed to mail me the results rather than calling me. But I'm scared and I'm convinced I'm positive. What should I do? I know I need to know the result but I don't actually want to know.