Symptoms although very early seem pretty conclusive

[rufinus]

I have posted a couple of times in the last couple of days but it now seems that my HIV infection is a text book case.
I had unsafe sex six days ago . First day after exposure I felt nuasea and lack of appetite. The lack of apetite has continued since but now I have a metallic tast in my mouth, a white film on my tongue and now a toe that moves independantly..all pretty conclusive I woudl say.
Serious depression and now suicidal thoughts....any support out there.

[rufinus]

thnkas m8..but I know my own bidy too well.. and I know it is not stress.. I have been there before and have not had these symptoms...I thnk it is progressing very quickly... now confused mind, tired eyes etc

[shudnthave]

the only way you will stop having these symptoms is if you get off your computer and stop reading about hiv more and more. Read the page the Lizzie Lou has posted in medical pages in the top right corner of this page and relax and understand that your mind is capable of making you have anything you fear.

get off google. everytime u see something out of the ordinary on ur body do not google for it.

let me tell you a better way to relax. just get on the train/subway and look at people around you and you would see people with all sorts of things and you can see people with rashes and sweating and looking tired and all .. all I am trying to say is there are a lot of quite normal human conditions that we face on a day to day basis which during a situation like this we tend to over examine and make worse.

peace brother. calm down and stop googling for symptoms.

[rufinus]

Thanks for posting.. it seems this site is for first contact and for people who are paranoid but have not really been in a truly risky situation and in danger of contracting HIV.
I have now found another site  thebody which has better and more up to date information.

All my symptoms poitn towards HIV infection and unfortunately I think it is pretty conclusive.

Jesus know what I do now. I did write a note t my partner early this moring and then stod on the parapet of my buildign contemplating teh pavement below. I didn't jump, and probably will not tomorrow either. It is the easy way out but it is very tempting.
How I will go on from here I do not know, but with Gods help I may find the strength to continue.

[alienshadow]

i say dont stop this dude let him do what he wants if hes that dumb then i say jump but when you are falling i bet you will regret jumping i have no compasion for someone like you you need MENTAL HELP

[worried826]

You need to sleep man, your so called symptoms will noly get worse if your body does not rest. Anxiety can really have a physical effect on the body. If you cant sleep at all or even if you do sleep but it isnt quality sleep you might want to look into going to see a therapist to talk to and maybe get some anxiety meds to get you through the next few weeks until you can go get a reliable HIV test.

I have been going through the same thing the last few weeks, I am filled with anxiety and although I do sleep, it isnt good deep sleep like the body needs to feel refreshed. I wake up in the morning felling like **** and have dark circles under my eyes. I am not getting quality sleep at night and its only been happening when I started getting anxiety over HIV again. And at the same time I get all these weird sensations in my body and sometimes some twitches. Its all anxiety driven, this same thing happed to me when I was a teenager, I swore I had HIV because the girl I lost my virginity to was rumored to be permiscous and I was too drunk to wear a rubber. I turned out negative and felt fine again after I found that out.

[LIZZIE LOU]

well i can tell you one damned thing...your family would be alot more disappointed in you if you killed yourself than if you had hiv.  what a copout...and probably all for nothing!!!  i have been on this forum for over a year...and i think there has only been one person who actually tested positive.

if i were you...i would get on the phone and call a psychiatrist.  you need professional help...something that none of us here are qualified to give you.

yes...you mucked up.  my son did too!!!!!  life goes on...and i dont mean to sound rude...but deal with it!!!  you are a grown man...take responsiblity for your sanity and seek out help.

continuing to post...out of control...will do NOTHING but make things worse.  take time to read the community archives...read the doctors forum.  see how many ppl were in the same position as you are...but never tested positive.