There is help for those like you. Contact the mental health system in your area.
i know what you mean,i am a pretty normal guy that use to be alot of fun, and have had 4 neg test over 11 months and undetechable pcr rna down to 48 copies, i asked the same question as you about if there is not one there has to be the other, after 3 months. that would make sense, i think teak answered me back a couple of weeks. hope we both get back to being the fun loving guys.
I hope you're right Teak. You have put up with a lot of questions from me and I do appreciate it. As I stated on this forum earlier, I'm married with 2 kids and my wife wants another. She knows about my work exposure and thinks I need to chill out. Everytime I think back to all my symptoms that I still experience today it just scares me. I just worry about her health too... If we try to have another baby I would never be able to live with myself if something bad happened regarding HIV or Hep C. So far, tests look ok...but I guess I just hope I'm not some sort of statistical phenomenon. Of course, my stupid fricking allergy test worries that we discussed are driving me nuts now too. I know you probably think I'm wacked-out. In reality, I'm a pretty normal guy that used to be a lot of fun. I feel like my life revolves around worrying about my health all the time now. I clearly need to find a way to stop this cycle.
You can't get anymore negative than that.
OK, thanks Teak. So basically it does seem clear that if there is no VL this is due to the antibodies controlling the virus's ability to replicate. An undet VL after a couple months past exposure should show antibodies if someone was infected...assuming the antibody test are newer generation and very sensitive. Therefore, no VL and no antibodies must be very conclusive that the person doesn't have HIV. The main reason for my sake is I had the VL test at 2 and 9 weeks...both <48c undet...and I had antibody tests at this time that were neg too...of course I had a 13 wk anti test too that was neg...I'm just trying to be 100% sure I'm neg...
The antibodies that one produces controlled the virus's replication. Without an overwhelming viral replication, there would be no detectable viral load. One shows a viral load when the viral replication is faster than the antibodies can control, hence the reason for antiretrovial medications for those that are not "elite controllers" or LTNP.