This morning ( Europe time ) I have had the results of my test.
It's NEGATIVE not only for HIV,but for all the MTS!
I'm so happy today! : )
I wante to say veru thanks to Lizzie,Teak and the other ones for the support given to me in these difficults moments.
Thanks a lot guys!
here are a few quotes that teak put up the other day:
by H. Hunter Handsfield, M.D., Feb 09, 2010 05:51PM
Of course no risk. HIV is not transmitted by kissing, even with sores in the mouth.
Despite the billions of kissing events in the AIDS era, not one case of HIV has been known to be transmitted that way, even though millions of those kisses undoubtedly were with cuts in the mouth or on the lips.
There is no need for HIV testing, even if your kissing partner was at high risk for HIV (e.g., gay man, injection drug user), and even if s/he is known to have HIV. Of course you can always get tested if you are unconvinced by this reassurance (and Teak's) and remain nervous about it.
HHH, MD
by Edward W Hook, MD, Feb 12, 2010 08:57PM
There is no risk to you of getting HIV or other STDs from kissing, even deep kissing an even if your mouth was dry an you had cold sores.
You do not need to be concerned and do not need testing of any sort. EWH
by H. Hunter Handsfield, M.D., Sep 12, 2006 12:00AM
Kissing carries no significant risk of HIV or other STDs, with or without blood exposure, and I am unaware of any reports of transmission through mouth area bites. I suppose the risk in theory is a little higher than kissing without biting, but even doubling a virtually zero risk still leaves virtually zero risk. In any case, the statistical likelihood is low that the stripper is HIV infected. I don't recommend testing.
Good luck-- HHH, MD
by Edward W Hook, MD, Mar 06, 2009 08:49AM
Your OCD is speaking to you far louder than the facts. You do not need testing. Kissing is no risk, even deep kissing and even with gum or dental disease. No one has EVER been infected with HIV through kissing. This includes kissing by all of the people who had HIV and gum disease, mouth sores, etc.
Got your point, but it was not ONLY saliva involved/exchanged but also other liquids (blood?),probably infected and my mouth wasn't totally healthy.
Why do you tell me I haven't had no risk?
It was not the standard deep kissing,but practically a deep kissing with blood in a mouth not healthy.
I'm still scared. :(
the truth is...(blowing of horns)...what you just described is NOT A RISK
I'm sorry guys but I'm really still scared to hell!
Please for the last time, I beg you to evaluate my situation as exposed.
Now I'm finally convinced condom never broken and here we're ok,but I have still a problem,still a damned variable in my equation I haven't unfortunately evaluated.
Please consider and read very carefully this potential situation at risk.
In some occasion after the insertive protected anal intercourse, the tranny made me a protected blow.job and after we have had a deep kissing. Now I'm scared that perhaps some infected liquid inside the anus of the tranny is passed, first, to the surface of the condom, after from the condom to mouth of the tranny via the oral sex (blow.job made by her) and at the end from the mouth of the tranny to my mouth via deep kissing. Don't know how many time is involved in this series of operation, but surely no more than few minutes. In your opinion this way can be a realistic one to be infected with HIV? Does the few time passed in this series of operation enough to configure the contact direct instead than indirect?
The doctors in various forum/boards insist to tell I'm not at risk because through deep kissing you can't catch HIV.
Ok.
But this is NOT the standard deep kissing!
It's deep kissing with SURELY involved some strange liquid of the anus of the tranny that can be BLOOD or other infective liquid and so practically speaking it's like a receiving oral sex in my mouth with ejaculation!
Please consider also that at the time I had also the wisdom tooth that was growing.
So my mouth wasn't perfectly ok.
It's for this that I'm so scared.
Please help me to calm down because I'm very agitated.
Unfortunately when I had given this deep kissing in this strange way I was drunk and while I have been very careful about the protected insertive anal sex,keeping always an eye on the condom, and stupidly didn't pay too much attention to deep kissing.
It's only after that I have realized I have made a big mistake.
I can't sleep to think I have been infected in so weird and stupid way.
Please Teak,Lizzie,Avonelle evaluate with sincerity my situation.
Have I risked or not in this situation?
Please tell me the truth.
Thanks and God bless.
No you would not miss a condom breakage if one would have happened.
I'm still scared to perhaps have missed some condom breakage!
Is so evident in your opinion a broken condom or you have to inspect it accurately after the intercourse?
Please help me.
I have big doubts here and don't sleep very well during the night to keep thinking this big doubt. :(
Lizzie,
Theoretically I've never had unprotected intercourse ( I mean only insertive anal intercourse,because a part the vaginal type, I have never had a receptive anal intercourse in entire my life ), but I'm scared because I have not always inspected the condom accurately after the use, but only at first sight.
So I'm afraid to have missed some broken condom during some anal insertive intercourse.
About other type of unprotected sex I have had a lot of unprotected insertive oral with very high risk persons as trannies street sex workers.
Because i was drunk sometime I also deep kissed for some time these trannies.
lizzie lou would love to comment as you asked...but i dont read novels :)
just tell me this...REGARDLESS OF YOUR SYMPTOMS...have you had unprotected sex? shared iv drug works?
if the answer is NO...then you had NO RISK ! ! !
Thanks for the support Mike,but I'm almost sure this time I'm done.
I have abused too many times of the good luck.
Too many times I have allowed myself in bad and immoral behaviors.
I'm sure this time I'll be punished by the destiny or God.
I had to stop this my bad behavior many years ago.
Now it's too late.
I'm almost sure this time I'm done.
There's no way to have a persisting swollen lymph node for more than 1 year.
This clear symptom can be only due to HIV.
This time, even with high risk intercourses but protected, in a strange unknown way, HIV has caught me.
The more probable cause could have been a broken condom during an intercourse and I haven't noticed it. Even at the end of the intercourse.
It would be very strange, but very probably it's what it has happened.
There's no other explanation.
I'm prepared to a bad result of the test I'll make.
Hope really to not have an instantaneous heart attack when the poz test will be given to me. :(
When a condom rips, it's evident. There wouldn't be an instance when it rips and you would n't know. I feel you're in the clear. However, should you speculate HIV, it's certainly not a bad idea to take a test.
Teak,Lizzie what do you think about my situation?!?
Regards
Grendizer
a condom break would be catastrophic and you would have definitely noticed..condom breaks dont occur with small holes which are invisible to the eyes..
if you had used condoms properly,you would have not put yourself in risk for exposure
Mike,
Thanks for your reply.
The point I'm scared because I'm pretty sure I have always used condom,but I have not always properly inspected it after the use and taken home to check its full integrity.
After every act the condom looked fine ok to me at a first sight,but I have still doubt to be gone wrong perhaps for my distraction or other motives.
In you opinion a condom broken should have be noticed above after a penetrative intercourse?
Wow, you can write so much!
Any ways, straight to the point - If you think, you have used condoms correctly and consistently for every sexual act, there should be no reason for you to freak out. Swollen nodes in the way you describe don't suggest HIV at the first place because HIV ARS and HIV related nodes are definitely generalized, meaning; all over the body, not just one or two swollen nodes showing up. Also, symptoms don't mean a thing, they are not the indicator for one's HIV sero-status.
Let's face it. Considering the fact that you have had spent so much of money with these hookers, you certainly wouldn't mind spending some for an HIV test at this juncture. And, if you tell me, it's not about the money but the courage to take the test. I'd say c'mon big man, you had the courage to hump all these street side senoritas, a little anxiety for the test won't do any harm. I'm not being sarcastic but keeping it absolutely in sync boy-talk.
You speculate HIV, you are sexually active, you have always used condoms, you got HIV anxiety, go take the test. The best solution that any one can offer.
Good Luck :)