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wants to put the past behind me
Dear doctor,
I am a 25 yr old female living in fear and regret. I've done a lot in my past (2-3 years ago) such as given oral sex, and regular old fashioned sex. I've always made my partners USE CONDOMS! for the exception of maybe 2 or so times were we have used the pull out method. No fluids exchanged. Oral or through vaginal. This all started with mejudgement on my end. I have a 7 year old child, his father and i have decided to get back together about a year ago. Well my fear of catching hiv has plagued me for two months now. I know during our time appart i explored, safely i would hope, but i also cannot be 100% sure what he has done. My fear set in when early January my child's father experienced a facial abcess which was drained and tested they found no root cause of infection. Prescribed an antibiotic and sent him on. Later about a month later he developed hives, itching all over for about a week. That went away. He has always had awful skin but that really scared me crazy. Well i got word about a month ago that a past coworker died of aids complications but she had a facial abcess too! Could this mean he has aids? Also i am a hairstylist around all kinds of people each day. How is Hiv contracted exactly and how liked is this to be hiv related? He is the only guy I've ever let "finish" in me. Also I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. I have stopped my mess ( i shouldn't have) i also have hydradenitus superativa if that makes any difference. We've used the pull out method recently because condoms can be irritating to my skin. But even then we never really have done it since we've been back together. I wont even kiss him because im freaked out. I regret being with other people, i just want our relationship work and it won't if i won't allow him to touch me. Am i at risk? Is this all crazy in my head? I can't eat, sleep or function because this stays on my mind!! i want to get tested i do but in afraid. I don't forgive myself at all i also have been getting my relationship back with God. I just want to know my risk so i can ease myself into testing. If his fluke illnesses are something bigger help please and God bless u for educating us on such a hush hush topic.
I am a 25 yr old female living in fear and regret. I've done a lot in my past (2-3 years ago) such as given oral sex, and regular old fashioned sex. I've always made my partners USE CONDOMS! for the exception of maybe 2 or so times were we have used the pull out method. No fluids exchanged. Oral or through vaginal. This all started with mejudgement on my end. I have a 7 year old child, his father and i have decided to get back together about a year ago. Well my fear of catching hiv has plagued me for two months now. I know during our time appart i explored, safely i would hope, but i also cannot be 100% sure what he has done. My fear set in when early January my child's father experienced a facial abcess which was drained and tested they found no root cause of infection. Prescribed an antibiotic and sent him on. Later about a month later he developed hives, itching all over for about a week. That went away. He has always had awful skin but that really scared me crazy. Well i got word about a month ago that a past coworker died of aids complications but she had a facial abcess too! Could this mean he has aids? Also i am a hairstylist around all kinds of people each day. How is Hiv contracted exactly and how liked is this to be hiv related? He is the only guy I've ever let "finish" in me. Also I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. I have stopped my mess ( i shouldn't have) i also have hydradenitus superativa if that makes any difference. We've used the pull out method recently because condoms can be irritating to my skin. But even then we never really have done it since we've been back together. I wont even kiss him because im freaked out. I regret being with other people, i just want our relationship work and it won't if i won't allow him to touch me. Am i at risk? Is this all crazy in my head? I can't eat, sleep or function because this stays on my mind!! i want to get tested i do but in afraid. I don't forgive myself at all i also have been getting my relationship back with God. I just want to know my risk so i can ease myself into testing. If his fluke illnesses are something bigger help please and God bless u for educating us on such a hush hush topic.
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