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extremestress/lizzylou/teak
has anyone read this thread lately :Coincidence? Very scared . What do you think . Is this even possible ???
Its very sad to believe/see from everyone's opinion that he was a lier. We cannot visualise the real facts from the risk factors that might be involved. He always been updating in the AIDSMED forum and his nervousness doesnt suggest he might be lying. Its really unpleasant/dissapointing if he was unfaithful to all the forum -But never knowing the facts saying him a lier is a very disspointing thing.
I was notified of this thread from someone on Aidsmeds. I want to preface my response by saying that everything I have written has been 100% accurate. There are no lies or exaggerations. If you don't care to believe me, that is up to you. I am being completely honest. (It is frustrating that so many people call you liers when in reality all I'm looking for is support in the darkest days of my life. But I digresss)
I will address the comments/questions that everyone has left in this thread, but I want to talk about a few things first.
There is no way possible I could have contracted HIV via any other source. Here is my sexual history: Other than the situation I posted, I have not had sexual contact with anyone other than my girlfriend in the past 5 years. I know that my girlfriend did not infect me because a)I tested negative 9 months ago due to a routine checkup. b)She tested negative 3 days ago. c) It cannot be that she was in the "window" period and infected me because we have not had sex for 2 months (1 month I was in Europe and the other month b/c of our worries of the infection). So if she was infected while we had sex it would have showed up on her test 3 days ago. (Obviously she hasn't had sex with anyone else, but I was just proving to the naysayers that even if she had, it wasn't possible for this to be the exposure)
I have never seen a drug let alone used one. There are no other possible exposures for me. This is it.
Now I will address the questions/comments/concerns that are posted in this thread from top to bottom:
Teak,
I did have a risk. Like I stated in my original post, I said I thought the condom broke in the 2nd occurance, but noone believed me. Having unprotected vaginal sex is a risk, albeit small for one time. The condom broke, there was a risk, and although unlucky, this is how I contracted HIV.
Lizzie,
I am telling the absolute truth about everything I posted. I didn't run to the forum to post after receiving my results. However, I was fairly certain that I was positive before receiving my results, so when I called and got them I was not completely surprised. Since I know absolutely noone with HIV, this forum and AidsMeds are the only places I can go to get comfort/information/etc. I am posting because I need answers during this dark time.
Rae,
How have I tried to stir up drama? I have only posted my story and everything is 100% true. I am not saying I contracted HIV via oral sex. I contracted it due to the broken condom.
I'm stupid,
I admit the purple mark on my penis was nothing and was not a sign of HIV. All of the symptoms were manifesting and I thought this was one as well. I think it was just due to dry humping with my girlfriend. (since we agreed not to have sex until the results came back)
Peek,
There is obviously nothing I can say to prove to you this was the only possible exposure. You can believe me or not, it really doesn't matter and I don't care much. I truly wish I was lying about being positive or that I was lying about any of this. Its all a nightmare I will have to deal with until I pass away.
Rae,
My girlfriend said the exact same thing to me. My seroconversion was the type where I had alot of symptoms. It truly looked like I was going through the list and just naming them off at random. I had every symptom that I posted about; in fact I had more but didn't post as I thought it would ruin my credibility and the Dr. wouldn't believe me. If anyone wants to know my symptoms I can post them, although at this time its irrelevant.
Extreme,
I agree. Any random person can come on here and lie. You have no duty to believe me and don't have to. All I can say is that I have been 100% truthful in everything I have said. I am not saying I contracted HIV due to oral. I contracted it due to the condom breakage.
Ok, in all honesty I don't know why I made this long post, but for some reason it makes me feel better to talk about it. I cannot be in denial and posting on these forums is therapeutic for me.
I am going to a clinic next week to get tests done for confirmation. Home Access is 99% accurate, so I know what to expect, but I need to get started at this process. If anyone has more questions I will check this thread or you can pm me.
Please keep me in your prayers.
I will address the comments/questions that everyone has left in this thread, but I want to talk about a few things first.
There is no way possible I could have contracted HIV via any other source. Here is my sexual history: Other than the situation I posted, I have not had sexual contact with anyone other than my girlfriend in the past 5 years. I know that my girlfriend did not infect me because a)I tested negative 9 months ago due to a routine checkup. b)She tested negative 3 days ago. c) It cannot be that she was in the "window" period and infected me because we have not had sex for 2 months (1 month I was in Europe and the other month b/c of our worries of the infection). So if she was infected while we had sex it would have showed up on her test 3 days ago. (Obviously she hasn't had sex with anyone else, but I was just proving to the naysayers that even if she had, it wasn't possible for this to be the exposure)
I have never seen a drug let alone used one. There are no other possible exposures for me. This is it.
Now I will address the questions/comments/concerns that are posted in this thread from top to bottom:
Teak,
I did have a risk. Like I stated in my original post, I said I thought the condom broke in the 2nd occurance, but noone believed me. Having unprotected vaginal sex is a risk, albeit small for one time. The condom broke, there was a risk, and although unlucky, this is how I contracted HIV.
Lizzie,
I am telling the absolute truth about everything I posted. I didn't run to the forum to post after receiving my results. However, I was fairly certain that I was positive before receiving my results, so when I called and got them I was not completely surprised. Since I know absolutely noone with HIV, this forum and AidsMeds are the only places I can go to get comfort/information/etc. I am posting because I need answers during this dark time.
Rae,
How have I tried to stir up drama? I have only posted my story and everything is 100% true. I am not saying I contracted HIV via oral sex. I contracted it due to the broken condom.
I'm stupid,
I admit the purple mark on my penis was nothing and was not a sign of HIV. All of the symptoms were manifesting and I thought this was one as well. I think it was just due to dry humping with my girlfriend. (since we agreed not to have sex until the results came back)
Peek,
There is obviously nothing I can say to prove to you this was the only possible exposure. You can believe me or not, it really doesn't matter and I don't care much. I truly wish I was lying about being positive or that I was lying about any of this. Its all a nightmare I will have to deal with until I pass away.
Rae,
My girlfriend said the exact same thing to me. My seroconversion was the type where I had alot of symptoms. It truly looked like I was going through the list and just naming them off at random. I had every symptom that I posted about; in fact I had more but didn't post as I thought it would ruin my credibility and the Dr. wouldn't believe me. If anyone wants to know my symptoms I can post them, although at this time its irrelevant.
Extreme,
I agree. Any random person can come on here and lie. You have no duty to believe me and don't have to. All I can say is that I have been 100% truthful in everything I have said. I am not saying I contracted HIV due to oral. I contracted it due to the condom breakage.
Ok, in all honesty I don't know why I made this long post, but for some reason it makes me feel better to talk about it. I cannot be in denial and posting on these forums is therapeutic for me.
I am going to a clinic next week to get tests done for confirmation. Home Access is 99% accurate, so I know what to expect, but I need to get started at this process. If anyone has more questions I will check this thread or you can pm me.
Please keep me in your prayers.
i did jump in and said I think he is either lying about having HIV now or lying about the incident.
Where are all the "oral is no risk" people? how come they havent jumped on this thread?
Yea, i got my 6 week negative for my low risk (oral me receiving) and now I'm a little scared again...because lets say he's telling the truth, he couldnt have gotten it if the condom was totally intact, correct? so the only explanation is that it was from the oral. now, again assuming he's being truthful??...and if he did contract it from recieving oral...HOLL SH$T!!!
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