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fear of exposure (studying abroad in Paris)
Hello all,
I am slightly worried and, while I know (at least hope) that the responses will be hopeful, I have been beating myself up for the past week about this.
A week ago, I went out with some friends and ended up leaving them and going home with a guy. We started kissing, did oral, and then he jumped out of bed and grabbed a condom and we had sex. The next morning, we woke up and started kissing a little bit. He then rubbed his penis around my ***, and then positioned it so that the head of his penis was rubbing against my anus. He then applied pressure (not enough to penetrate), but indeed there was more pressure. After about 3 seconds of this pressure, I immediately changed my position. We gave each other oral and about 10 minutes later he took a condom out and we had sex again.
I just can't help thinking of the what-ifs. For example, if there was slight precum on the tip of his penis, could he have pushed it inside of me when we did engage in protected intercouse afterwards? I think it's a good sign that he seemed serious about the condom use for intercourse, but I haven't been able to let go the instance of the bare head of his penis applying pressure to my anus.
What do you guys think?
I am slightly worried and, while I know (at least hope) that the responses will be hopeful, I have been beating myself up for the past week about this.
A week ago, I went out with some friends and ended up leaving them and going home with a guy. We started kissing, did oral, and then he jumped out of bed and grabbed a condom and we had sex. The next morning, we woke up and started kissing a little bit. He then rubbed his penis around my ***, and then positioned it so that the head of his penis was rubbing against my anus. He then applied pressure (not enough to penetrate), but indeed there was more pressure. After about 3 seconds of this pressure, I immediately changed my position. We gave each other oral and about 10 minutes later he took a condom out and we had sex again.
I just can't help thinking of the what-ifs. For example, if there was slight precum on the tip of his penis, could he have pushed it inside of me when we did engage in protected intercouse afterwards? I think it's a good sign that he seemed serious about the condom use for intercourse, but I haven't been able to let go the instance of the bare head of his penis applying pressure to my anus.
What do you guys think?
I would also like to say that since that episode, I developed a sore throat (the next day) and it is slowly getting better finally.
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