Someone please help me...I'm about to die here

[usajag03]

Okay, so short story.  Two weeks ago I was diagnosed with Herpes Tyep II and have been dealing with this pretty well. Don't know whether it came from my boyfriend or not, but it's not the point and he and I are okay with that.  So in discussions, we decided that we should just go ahead and clear the air and have a full STD panel done so that we could move on and not worry anymore.  I had already been tested for gonnorhea and chlymadia as part of my earlier diagnosis, so I was negative on those tests.  That just left and HIV test.  I had a test in November of 2005 before surgery and tested negative then.  Since then, I have only been with 3 people- one is my 3 year old son's father, the other 2 were monogamous committed relationships in which I knew both parties extremely well before we consented to unprotected sex (were trying to have children so we had to have unprotected sex), and the last is my current boyfriend who I've been dating for a little over a month now.  Prior to 2005, I admit that I was stupid about using protection.  Iny any case, I decided today to run by a local HIV clinic because they do the rapid HIV test (cheek swab) just to ease my mind.  I feel like my world has been turned upside down right now.  The first test showed a faint (very, very faint) line on it at which poin the clinician told me I was positive and that I needed a confirmatory test that would take about a week to get the results.  I seriously sat in his office and thought about committing suicide right then.  I begged them to do a second cheek swab and they agreed.  This one came back clear as a bell.  Not even a trace of a line.  So, I begged them again to do a third one.  The third time I did the cheek swab I swabbed to the point that my gums had bled so there was even blood on the sample, and the clinician told me that was actually very helpful.  It came back negative as well.  So, they are sending off the confirmatory testing and I am going to have to wait a week.  In the meantime, I have an appointment with my GYN today to get orders to have the testing done because his office only takes a few days.  

My question is this:  The clinican told me that he had never seen a false positive before, but with the 2 follow ups being negative he would say my chances of being negative are great.  He said I had only a very minimal chance of being positive...maybe 1%.  Can someone please help me here.  I am freaking out, and so is my boyfriend.  All I can think about is that fact that I am going to die before my little boy does.  I feel like life is completely over and the past that I tried so hard to forget is not tearing my current life apart.  

[LIZZIE LOU]

relax...you DONT have hiv...expect a BIG FAT NEGATIVE

[Vance2335]

If you were positive then your next 2 tests would have come up positive. False negatives do not happen but false positives do and the quick tests yeild a higher false positive rate then standard blood tests. Once you have a positive test it is confirmed due to fase positives as I have said but again there are never false negatives if the test is done 3 months after last unprotected encounter. Your confirmation test will come back negative based on your 2 negative tests..