hiv fear and depression....

[ruinmylifetravis]

I find myself reading site after site. Blog after blog for the last 5 or so weeks. I told myself I'm fine but now I'm not sure. It I'm regards to oral sex and saliva exposure I had twice with an escort. There was also brief kissing during one of the visits. I never had sex or anal sex with her. The thought of what I did makes me gross to my stomach besides the point about ruffly 4 to 5 weeks from this time I have developed a slight fever, very bad sore throat almost swollen console like, and a weakness from the fever along with bad chest congestion. I've told myself its a sinus infection weather is cold now and I used to get them all the time as a kid.. however now I'm scared. I have bad oral health bleeding gums not bad but enuff. All these crazy thoughts are taking over.... what is my real risk? Do these sound like the beg. Of hiv infection?? When I goto my Dr for a check up should I face the embarrassment and order a hiv test and fear the worse..... I feel so depressed, and I'm not just saying this i do. I'm not me since this all happened, the fear and what its are taking over my life.... please any advice would help right now.

[ruinmylifetravis]

Thankyou and i hope you are right friend...

[zamzam4]

it is a coincidence because you did not have a risk for HIV.  Whatever is going on with you physically has absolutely nothing to do with HIV, it sounds to me like you get an ill timed cold.

[ruinmylifetravis]

That's what I tell myself. I do teak. It's just I'm overall a healthy fit male I'm a personal trainer and rarly get sick anymore and now this happened and I can't think stait... I know you guys here and in the Dr.s forum get these questions a lot and I feel stupid for asking... but I can't help but think its to coensadencil.

[Teak]

Sorry to disappoint you, but you've never had an exposure.