Is this HIV or Parnoia?

[Iso_Lated]

I'm a fairly healthy 21 yr old(except for cervical displaysia that Ive had for 2yrs, not caused by HPV) but lately I've been so paranoid about having HIV that I go into random crying spells where I am begging and pleading to any "being, god or creature" that will here me, swearing to change my life if I come back negative next week(I was tested today). The thing is I'm not a careless person but the past few months I have "bed hopped" from a few men. Things went downhill for me when the ex I loved had been cheating on me the entire time we dated(that's when the fear started) Anyway, I only had unprotected sex with 2 men(one time a piece) and it was spaced apart by months and neither came inside me but I had given oral... I got a cold about  month and a half later and it was diagnosed as "croupe" and I was given Tussionex(I also took a Zpak and a bunch of other cold meds all at once) and soon after developed thrush(My doctor said that was a result of the zpak and mix of meds) and about 3 or 4months before that I had a rash all over my face but no where else(It was said to have something to do with allergies or my hair care products at the time). I was just wondering does it seem that I have HIV? Thee man I had unprotected sex with(who is my boyfriend) had been tested and Ive seen his paperwork and all of that and he's 100% clean and always has been and the other man is my best friend who I've gone to be tested with in the past yr so I was wondering if I could have HIV from giving unprotected oral twice to someone? Also the thing with my "symptoms" is my 3yr old son and 16yr old little sister also had the cold and rash at the same time I had them and theere is absolutely no way they've even been exposed to any possible virus at all. AM I just paranoid? Some one please just talk to me and calm me down so that I don't end up killing myself(litterally) before the text result come in next week. Namaste

[Iso_Lated]

Thanks, it's been over 3 months since my last exposure risk and a part of me thinks I'm just grasping at straws for possiblle symptoms to connect together and since getting tested even though not knowing the results yet I feel a tad bit better but am still scared senseless...

[hivsure11]

don't worry about it so much.but if you do make a hiv test 3 months after your last exposure for conclusive results,ok???everybody on this forum will tell you that!!!!!
good luck