hi,
i've been posting in this blog for a while, but i have to say that my concerns about HIV are sometimes over exaggerated. Yes it is true, I am scared of this deadly virus.
I had sex for the first time on 4 july 2015 with an older woman. I'm 22 and she's in her 50s. Yes i know, she's old enough to be my mother, but no judgements! (yes i had sex with a cougar) I've had sex twice with this woman. The first time as previously mentioned and the second time one on 11 july 2015. She's my first sexual partner.
Anyways on 4 july 2015, the first time we had sex (she away my v card) we proceeded to oral sex and obviously it was not protected. So yes I had contact with her vaginal fluids as she had contact with mines.
After oral sex, we proceeded to sexual intercourse with a condom. I remember that I tired putting on the condom upside down but the fixed and put it in the right way. I question myself about the dangerousness of this situation.
Moving on to 11 July 2015: unprotected oral and intercourse. However, due to my anxiety, my penis was not erected enough to keep the condom intact and remember that i had to pull it up because it was slipping. My fear now is that probably my head of the penis went inside her vagina unprotected.
About my partner's status: She claims to be HIV negative and free from STDs. Before having sex we discussed about it and confirm me she clean. However, the fact that she had numerous sexual partners raises some concerns as possible HIV carrier. She claims to have sex with condoms all the time and that if there's no comdom there's is no sex. The last time she recalls having unprotected sex was over 12 years ago when she was with her husband and says she test on regular basis.
Now my question is that I've experiencing weird feelings in my body. Sometimes i feel I'm out of breath even when resting and I notice I have a red itchy bump near my left calf. Also, yesterday, I experienced fatigue on several occasions.
When I ask her if she's been feeling sick she says she is not. However, she going through menopause.
Was I ever at risk from this situation, considering the oral sex and the condom failures? Are my "symptoms" suggestive of HIV?