Hello, So I have had panic attacks since I was 17 years old. I am now 34. Female. Pretty healthy. 5'5. 130lbs. Do not drink, smoke, drugs, ever. Do not drink any form of caffiene. Except for the chocolate on occasion. Eat pretty healthy, lots of fruit, vegtables, fish, salads ect.. When my panic attacks started, they were a racing heart. shortness of breath, hyperventilating, really scary, and new. I rushed myself to the ER many times. But once I got there. Nothing. Years passed.. and I slowly got better from 18 to 23, I didn't have them too much. I had trained myself to be able to stop it before it got out of control, and calm myself down. At age 24 I remember sitting on the sofa watching jaws of all things. And thats when it happened. My first (felt) PVC.
In fact it was one after the other after the other! I rushed myself to the ER, driving thru red lights and all. Knowing that I was going to die. When I arrived, they had calmed down, and I was told I was fine. Panic attack. I took my first anti anxiety Oxezepam 10mg and went home. I remember although its been awhile that for weeks after that, I was living in terror. I mean.. I know my heart is going to stop any second and die terror. I was literally a prisoner of fear. Scared to go anywhere, do anything. Go to work, I was embarrassed that I was freaking out, and scared. I went to a cardiologist that did an ECHOCARDIOGRAM, and said my heart was normal, although possible BENIGN MITRAL VALVE PROLAPSE. AND BENIGN PVC'S. He wrote on the paper.. " you are fine, take anti anxiety, and cut out the cheese out of your diet." after that, I don't remember how long it took.. but it came and went. sometimes I was totally fine. and some days or nights especially I could feel it do a skipped beat followed by a stronger one here and there, sometimes for hours in a row, and the anti anxiety did help.
Between 26 and 33 those years, I didn't have any major panic attacks anymore. I knew how to talk myself out of it before it blew up. And I felt the pvc's some weak, and sometimes a really strong one that litteraly took my breath away,and makes me want to cough, for some reason when it happens, but I would feel them sometimes one a day, sometimes one a week, or a month, or months of nothing at all. I was living my life, and able to even do a little traveling, go on dates, go to the movies, and be " normal" as I can be with this disorder... SUDDENLY, about A WEEK AGO, NOW 34.. I felt a really strong palpatation (pvc), ignored it as my usual. and then felt another. and another.. Hmmmm.. ugh oh. Kept feeling them, all day, maybe 10 an hour. Now I'm scared. worked up. Went right down to my cardiologist whom I have not been to or seen in 10 years! and he did EKG, totally normal. Then took blood. Normal on mag/pottassian/ thyroid, ect ect.. Then he put a event monitor on me.
I've been wearing it for 6 days now. Its caught many many of these pvc's that I have now been having for 6 days. straight. non stop. I don't feel them when I sleep, but I feel it the second I open my eyes in the morning til I go to sleep. sometimes more when I get up to walk around the house. take a shower. brush my hair. do the dishes, simple activities. also when I'm laying down, or sitting too though. just seems like maybe not quite as many. They are all really strong feeling. I've had 3 EKG's this week. All normal. 2 blood test testing for all that they do.. and normal. My cardiologist called me and said he is seeing my event monitor activity and that I'm having benign PVC's. and that they are not dangerous. BUT NO MATTER WHAT HE SAY'S FOR SOME REASON.. I CAN'T STOP CRYING AND BEING UPSET ALL DAY, WAITING ON EDGE FOR THE NEXT ONE, THINKING about ALL THE THINGS IN LIFE I CANNOT HANDLE OR DO WITH THESE PVC'S. I ALSO KEEP THINKING CAN I SUDDENLY BE GETTING HEART DISEASE AND THATS WHATS INCREASING THEM NOW? ALTHOUGH I HAVE HAD THEM FOR 10 YEARS. JUST NOT THIS MUCH, THIS MANY. THIS IS UNBEARABLE TO ME. I AM VERY UPSET, AND WONDERING IF THATS MAKING THEM WORSE AND WORSE. I'M SCARED TO TAKE MEDICATIONS OTHER THAN ANTI ANXIETY, BUT MY OXEZEPAM 10MG IS NO LONGER HELPING THEM ANYHOW. I AM A NERVOUS WRECK, ANGRY AND UPSET AT THE SAME TIME. I KEEP THINKING HOW CAN I HAVE GONE 10 YEARS WITH THEM BEING BEARABLE.. ONCE IN A WHILE TO ALL THE SUDDEN ALL DAY LONG? WILL THEY CALM DOWN AGAIN? OR IS THIS HOW ITS GOING TO BE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE???...