how could i screw up this bad???

[ajwwr82]

hey,i went down to my school nurses this afternoon, because i was worried about my bpm. well the reason is because i checked my pulse and i thought it was going 120 bpm -130 bpm,so i went down. she checked it and said it was only 76 bpm and that my bp was fine, she heard no arrythmias,the pvc's were in my head, and no murmurs...how could i mess up my hr this bad and all this other stuff???any ideas would help me cuz im so baffled at how much different my numbers were compared to the actual...

[Momto3]

WOW!!  A famous person in our midst....LOL

Good news on the anxiety....one day at a time : )

[ajwwr82]

well, the passing out part is kind of up for grabs. i mean,.it happened in a heart specialist dr.'s office because we were talking about my courses of action for the murmur. but they didnt have to do anything to get me out of it, i just kinda woke up, lol. but the weird thing is my heart murmur closed up an hour after that happened, and the doctors could not believe it. its on record at that hospital for one of the most miraceuolos health oddysees. lol, guess im famous....
but as for the anxiety, i talked to my nurse and she gave me some help. im feeling much better now and i dont notice things as much anymore...ill tell u how everything goes as far as the anxiety and what the doc says about my pvcs and so on...thanks a lot everyone

[Momto3]

Are you sure you passed out because of a heart murmur and not from something else?  I'm not sure why that would happen.  I have had a heart murmur for many, many years and that has never happened (thank goodness).  

As for being over the anxiety, you seem to be having a tough time with that.  That's nothing bad, but there are definitely medical interventions (RX, therapy, meditation, biofeedback, etc) that can help.  What you are doing does not seem to be helping you to get past your fear.  That's OK, but there's no sense in being anxious if there is a professional who can help you get back on track.  Hey, as a Mom, I'll bet she would want to know...  As for making her mad, probably not, she is probably frustrated.  But, you can her (calmly) that you are equally frustrated because you don't seem to be able to get past it. Explain that there are people (like me) who know that anxiety is real and can be so frustrating.  That is often not an explanation, but there are treatments.  Let me know how it goes...."Mom, I just can't seem to stop worrying; I've tried doing things to relax, but I seem to worry over things I don't even need to worry about.  The good thing is that the rational part of me knows I'm worried, but the irrational part can't separate.  Do you mind if I talk to Dr. ___ about what else I might be able to do to help me get past these irrational fears?"  

[ajwwr82]

i do lots of things to lower my anxiety, and it started ever since i passed out once cuz of a heart murmur. i dont like to tell her cuz it stresses her out and makes her mad because i should be over my anxiety by now...

[Momto3]

It's not that you are "messing up," it's that you have anxiety over health issues and it leads you to trying to diagnose and muster up a non-existent condition.  Have you and/or your parents considered discussing your fears with the doctor?  Your heart is fine and until you get past this anxiety you will continue to believe you have a problem.  Seriously, the anxiety is much worse than the few palps and slightly increase HR now and again.  

While an echocardiogram can certainly change over a short time (mine defnitely did), you have no indications that point toward a heart problem.  Please talk with your mom about seeing the doctor for the anxiety.

[SassyLassie]

Sometimes when we are overly anxious about something, we will actually think we are having more of the problem than we really are, the mind can really play tricks on us. When I wore the holtor monitor for 24 hours 4 years ago, I pressed the button a few times thinking I was having the PVC's well, when the cardiologist read the strip, his report said only two PAC the entire time and non that correlated with the times I pressed the button. He said it was excellent. So, you see, we can actually "imagine" these things sometimes, as hard as that is to believe.

Try not to dwell on them so much and do what you enjoy, and again, if they are really bugging you, insist on seeing a doc, as the saying goes, "it is the squeaky wheel that gets the oil" meaning if you complain enough, something will get done.