Crying

Question

In week 4 and holding my own although starting get anemic and my WBC is starting to crap out again. Last time I treated I was on neupogen the whole time. Question for the group though - why the heck am I crying all day when there is nothing to cry about! SO not like me.

crossroadsec · Answer

I'm a big hearted baby too. 3rd injection tomorrow and I get all weepy so easy. Like now, thinking about how You're doing. I'm gonna send up prayers n good vibes for all of us. Sleep hard girl. <3 Karen

beeblessed · Answer

Hi. Forgive me if this sounds naive, as I haven't started tx yet.....if this happens when you are at home, maybe have a LOL movie or something nearby that can ALWAYS make you laugh. Or drink something. Remember when we were little kids and didn't wanna stop crying? Then some grown up handed us a glass of water or Kool Aid and said it would make us feel better. It worked because it was nearly impossible to drink and cry at the same time. I'm not meaning to simplify your need to cry (or lack of control because of meds), I am just looking for a quick distraction to try to make you feel better. Ignore this if it doesn't help you (like I said, this side effect will be new for me and I'm already a crier). There is a huge recommendation to get on ADs before treatment, as they can take a little time to work. I think you should get on something ASAP. Best to you!

roostermom · Answer

Yes I meant anc

flcyclist · Answer

Did you mean to say ANC? - absolute neutrophil count.  A good measure of risk of infection.  Mine tanked to 325 before neupogen.  WBC is also important.

meakea · Answer

Welcome to the crying club...lol.  I don't know the "why", but I cried nearly everyday when Iw was on TX too.  I didn't cry all day long but it usually hit me when I was driving to work and then once or twice a day at work and then on the way home from work.  I would run to the bathroom at work when I felt it coming on so that no one would see my cry.  And, of course, in my car I was free to cry as I pleased.  I just had to be sure to blink fast so the tears didn't obstruct my vision.  I always felt better after the cry passed.

roostermom · Answer

Thanks. This doc will wait until WBC is closer to 500 currently at 900 before starting the neupogen. My rbc was fine last time so not sure at what point they start procrit. Anyone know when they start thar? The dr said today we should consider an AD. I think I may do it.

flcyclist · Answer

The first 4 weeks or so for me were an emotional rollercoaster.  A combination of the drugs effect's on the body, mind and the period of adjustment to treatment was a bit challenging.   Things have leveled out since then.  Since you've been through this before you probably know best, but might be worth talking to the doc about an AD if it continues.  

Hope your cbc's behave and you're permitted rescue drugs if needed.  

Best luck to you.