getting too hard

[audreywald]

Tomorrow will be shot #6.

It is getting so hard to go through this. I feel like giving up. Sick all the time, it is a big deal if I can walk around the block. Every week it is more doctors and more sides. I am getting sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Does anyone else ever want to give up?

[jg2001]

I go Thursday for remainder blood results (i.e., viral load and geno type) and to schedule the biopsy.  Soooo, however long it takes after that.  I'll know more on Thursday.  I'm really hoping for "0's", which would mean that the doctor wouldn't recommend treating right now, however, my past history dictates that I'm not that lucky!  But, there's no harm in hopin'!  And trust me, I will take advantage of each and every one of you if and when I ever have one of "those" days!

My memory is shot to the curb!  I can relate to "brain fog" even without any meds!  That's a whole nother story!  LOL!

I am so glad you made it through the day.  Makes us appreciate the good days all that much more.  There will be more good days, Audrey, there always are...you can count on that!

Jamie

[honey1616]

I know that I had read some others that went for the 24 week to test for viral load.  Have you talked to your dr about that.  And then I'm wondering if clear at 24 weeks...to continue a certain amount of time after the clearing.

[Fubarcat]

Oh, please don't give up.  You are one of my shot buddies (I'm #5, your are #6).  I know it can be hard and you have had some extra to deal with.  But please take it one day at a time.  Tomorrow may look completely different to you.  Draw on your inner strength to get through this.  Everyone here is pulling for you!  Take care and try to get some rest tonight.  I'll be thinking of you.  Check in tomorrow and let us know how you are.

[honey1616]

Jamie, You definitely have your plate full and yes you are so compassionate to everyone on this board and always helping everyone.  Who would have ever dreamed that you have been through so much.  I think tx will probably be a breeze for you being through everything you have.  You may tend to run out of energy more and need to pamper yourself more so.  But hey,,,you know you have us rooting for you in the background!!

[jg2001]

Same philosophy of NA/AA, one Hepper (Addict) helping another.  That's what keeps us strong.  That's what keeps us comin' back.  Another thing, I don't appear sick.  I look basically healthy! LOL!  I use the "I'm just lazy" excuse when I don't want to go out and do anything.  My son has no idea, he just knows he has a "cool" mom...I love that.  Tattoos and a belly button ring!  He's my buddy.  Getting pregnant with him saved my life, the most I could do for him is try to live as long and productively as I can.  Hang in there.  

Jamie

[mother of three]

Hi Audrey, I"M so sorry to here your having such a tough time.I have had some pretty bad time's myself. It does get better, I recenty became NONDETECTABE at week 12 or was it 13. lol. Since then that new's has made it easier to cope. I have lot's of day's i can't and don't do anything, If thats what it takes for me to fight this dragon. Thats what are bodys are telling us to do. Please don't give up . the more water the better. and alot of raw vegies are working for me.. I'll say a special prayer for all of heppers tonight.... Ma GOD BE WITH YOU.