thanks for the input. wyntre u arent a wimp, youre a fighter. if i remember correctly, even rocky balboa had some tough rounds.
After what I went through today, (did I or did I not have a mini-relapse from last week to this week) I'm ready to accept my Dr.'s offer of AD's when I see him tomorrow.
Even before the mail came today and flipped me out, I've been fighting the depressions. I'm super-sensitive to noise, especialyy. The sound of cars going past my house is enought to make me want to do a Franz Kafka and get out an UZI.
It must be the vibration of the engine - as a lifelong musician, woodwind player, teacher, I'm extremely sensitive to sound.
But it goes beyond reason. Any minor irritations make me want to jump out of my skin or do a final exit.
It's gotta be the drugs.
And it seems worse after morning Riba.
I keep telling myself that. The pharmacist told me during meds training to PAY ATTENTION to mood swings/depression.
WHile I'm paying attention big time, now.
If I get script for AD's I'll let you know how I'm doing.
At this point I'm feeling desperate for some relief.
And the longer this TX goes on, the more amazed I am that ANYONE ever makes it through to the end.
Maybe I'm just a wimp.
I also experienced anxiety. My doc gave me 1 mg ativan to take as needed. It worked wonders. Good luck.