You can not believe this one.....we must truely be "compadres" because I did the same thing as you......I wrote OH SUCH a witty response to you.........I think I was even kind of funny,(at least I thought so....tee hheee) and I went back to check the display thread......and "bamb" I lost my whole text.......okay, well it is 2:00 AM for goodness sake....and my cute little kitty, Willie, is jumping on my comp. keys........I guess he just wants to say "hi"......as it is 2:00 AM, I think I will be feeling my Ambien soon....(do you take it....you really do get good rest....I initially did not want to do them when my DR. suggested......but my husband talked me into trying.....(as he was on tx before......SVR for over one year..and he was a "1".....he had no problem getting off the Ambien after tx.) I am getting too tired to repeat my "missing text" so I will save it for tomorrow......oh, that would be "later today"......just one more thing...I had to go out this evening......and man....I was feeling weird, first a little nauseaus,,,,but then just plain freaky.....or, really I felt like a freak..hahahahah.....I just wanted my pj's........"home sweet home"......I did take my shot tonight at 12:30am..........have a good night....(morning, now)
Peace...............(a compadre in tx and a blond to boot.....)I am sure you have heard just about all of the dumb blonde jokes.....tee hee........heard em all..........
You can not believe this one.....we must truely be "compadres" because I did the same thing as you......I wrote OH SUCH a witty response to you.........I think I was even kind of funny,(at least I thought so....tee hheee) and I went back to check the display thread......and "bamb" I lost my whole text.......okay, well it is 2:00 AM for goodness sake....and my cute little kitty, Willie, is jumping on my comp. keys........I guess he just wants to say "hi"......as it is 2:00 AM, I think I will be feeling my Ambien soon....(do you take it....you really do get good rest....I initially did not want to do them when my DR. suggested......but my husband talked me into trying.....(as he was on tx before......SVR for over one year..and he was a "1".....he had no problem getting off the Ambien after tx.) I am getting too tired to repeat my "missing text" so I will save it for tomorrow......oh, that would be "later today"......just one more thing...I had to go out this evening......and man....I was feeling weird, first a little nauseaus,,,,but then just plain freaky.....or, really I felt like a freak..hahahahah.....I just wanted my pj's........"home sweet home"......I did take my shot tonight at 12:30am..........have a good night....(morning, now)
Peace...............(a compadre in tx and a blond to boot.....)I am sure you have heard just about all of the dumb blonde jokes.....tee hee........heard em all..........
I just wrote you this whole long response and somehow...I lost it...I hate when that happens...and I was sounding so witty...teeheee
Well, I'll try again....I surely know what you mean about the hair thing....I cut mine(also long and blonde) right before the tx...cause I was sure that I would loose mine...my nurse assured me....da###N her..hhahahaha.....anyway I started using Nioxin about a month before tx and I think that must be why....anyway I better find some wood to knock on....hhahahha...I went for the short"pixie"look......my sides have been relatively mild (compared to others here) until about a month ago....I don't know if it's cause my WBC went way down...or the neupogen I started taking...or just Tx at this stage of the game....One minute I have all this energy and the next....I feel like I've been ran over by the"truck" everyone keeps talking about...I also started getting reallllllly bad head aches that would last for dayyyyyyssssss.....does it seem like I'm exaggerating....hhahahaha...really I'm not. After Christmas and then again after New Year...I could not get out of bed for almost 3 days....I felt like such a loooooser.....bad mommmy and grandma...I took my son and grandson to the movies and felt sooo bad after...I couldn't drive home....we live 30 to 45 minutes from town.Had to go to my daughters..who was closer...and lie down until my SO came and got me.
Anyway...I felt better yesterday...got up at 4:30 am....but could not go to sleep again until 4:30 am this morning...24 hours later...these meds.....or I'm going bonkers....teee heee
My shot night is Monday so I'm right before you...it will be great to have a shot buddy :)...I'm so glad you wrote in...I'll be watching for you...take care, berlynn
showboat...ramble away darlin, the longer the better..like i'm going anywhere soon anyways.....love the reading material....no such thing here as RAMBLING okay.....
INDY, you wacko, i love yah!!!! that was pretty funny, i could picture the whole scenerio....I DIDN'T TELL YOU THAT I HUNG GROW A DATE....HOW DID YOU KNOW..and me with no bullets on shot day....and riding a horse backwards....i DID ride my horse backwards once....just to prove a point!!!! ha ha ha...long story!!!.
...anyway, i am feeling better mentally today.....except for the norm...headaches,hot pokers behind my eyes, vice grip on my spine, nausea, weakness etc....all things i CAN deal with today....woow that depression **** just came outta no where and TOTALLY BLINDSIDED ME......and kicked the **** outta me yesterday.....sorry all...sure am glad you were all here though, or it could have been far far worse.....just sometimes really need to know we are going to get through it and that YES it will pass, even though in the middle of it , it feels like it will never get better....it does and did!!! thanks all
kimmy
forgot to mention that the blond hair used to be from the bottle........since I am not coloring it right now.....it really looks quite alluring.......NOT .....tee hee
Oh, my gosh!!!! Indiana...that was soooo funny!!!! Are you always that creative....or is it the "drugs"?? In any case, you are entertaining me BIG TIME......between you and Ringading...I think you guys could write a book!!!
berlynn...thanks for the welcome. You are not alone in feeling crazy. I am doing 31/48 tonight.....and you know, this is my third tx "series"...and the shots are still a "mind" thing. I always have to psych myself up for the plunge.... I have my days of extreme misery and blues.....I just do my crying and tell myself that crying is a good thing for that moment. You know that the drugs are doing "their thing" when I realize that I am enjoying my misery....tee hee...this site really helps me when I am really down.....the info is "eye opening" (more info than the DR. can give re: sx) and many times very humorous....I have hairloss too...my hair WAS finally looking the way I liked...long, blond...down to my waist...I lost so much I had to "bob" it......even tho it is only hair, as a woman....it has really been difficult for me to feel my "sexy ol self".....I "wear alot of hats"...both physically (for my hair) and how I present myself to the world...sometimes (most times) I just do not want to mingle with people....I can hardly wait until "I am back"...it DOES COME BACK....remember...one day you will "magically" feel a shift.....(after tx completion) I think depression is normal because these sx make us feel so badly......we wonder if our life will always be this way........I have been extremely exhausted since I started treatment.....have been "just lying around" ....aside from the other sx (stabbing eye pain, LOTS of itching, sleeping, no taste for food....etc, etc.....) I just STARTED getting moments of wanting to clean the house, go outside.....make something to eat...blah blah that is exciting to me.......little "time pockets" of energy...I just have to remember not to over do it.........get out of breath quickly. berlynn, what day do you do your shots??? I am Tuesday evening.....usually between 11Pm and midnight.....I feel like I have a "compadre" now (31/48).....I will think of you when I do my shot....it will probably make it easier now that I have a "shot buddy"......To all: sorry for taking up so much space.............I am rambling again...sorry