itchy night

[GALLIUM]

gahhhhhh only managed to get one hour sleep last night had the itchies real bad so just gave up and got up.
gonna make a wallyworld run (out of canned dog food).
i'm curently taking urso 500mg 2 times a day, cholestyramine 2 times a day and atarax 50 mg at bed time for the itching.
this had been one of the worst nights for itchine in a longgggg time.
we have a great dane ( black female) english mastiff ( tan male)
golden retriever ( very old female) and 8 cats, so animal food runs are an almost daily thing for us.
i'm trying to talk the wife into letting me breed the dane and mastiff together, i have seen pictures of the mix and they look awsome.
guess after the wally run i will try and get a nap( we both work at the same hospital and same shift, 12 hour nights)
since the coffee is ready i'll have a cup and get dress and head out.
ya'll have a great day see ya later.

[Showboat]

Hello.  This is the first submission from me, although I have been reading the forum about 1 month, and reg. today.  I really enjoy you all so much.  Sorry to "break" into the thread, but did not want to start a new one.  I really felt the need to respond today because I feel so badly for Ringading!!!!!! I love reading your upbeat humorous "life stories"...and I am sad that you are feeling bad. Hang in there!!! I am a 3a.....this is my third tx.  I was a non-responder with interferon (no riba) in the mid 90's....Sx were terrible! (NON-RESPONDER!) I tried again a year after I stopped the first tx as there was a "blind" study I joined.  Oh, well......6 months (both times), "sx be darned"....I really want to slay this "D"....I found out that I was on the placebo (during the study)..did not get the riba that was being studied.....Well, I am now doing the pegasys-copeg, and I am at 31/48 tomorrow.  To all, sx are not fun to be sure...but I figure the pegasys is worth trying again...you see, my husband "was" a 1 (a or b ?..brain fog, sorry) he went on pegasys and slayed the Dragon!!!!  He has been "clear" over a year.  Hope for me......So, Ringading....I know where you are coming from, girlie....I feel like a "pin cushion"....and days are always different.  I decided to embrace my "dispair with great glee".......I am looking down the road.  It is a good excuse on my "bad" RRage days...ha ha ha.  Hang in there.  I get all of the sides, all at different times. They come and go........(my rash is being managed, but that can really drive ya nuts!!!!)
So do not worry about the mess in your house.....it is really tough and easy to get "blue" about the mess.......Look at it and love it.....it will get done........"baby steps"  When you need to rest....rest......I feel like I am rambling.....Sorry....  I really enjoy reading all of your input and comments....this site is GREAT....and you are all so honest and up front about everything.....you make me feel like I belong, and I never even "spoke" to you yet...ha ha....

[ringading]

oh bless your heart showboat...your one tough cookie.....wow.....i am sooooo glad you were touched and choose to write and say hey to us all..A HEARTFELT WELCOME TO YOU SWEETIE...guess i best CLIMB ON DOWN from my pitifest...and think of something funny...has anyone ever seen the movie...yikes..disney i think....pollyanna?...well, her belief is , that no matter how bad something is she has to find a reason in everything to "Be Glad"...well, i like to do something similar, but i like to find something FUNNY...OKAY, SO HERE IT IS....I'VE GOT TODAYS....well....2 funny things actually now looking back....okay, so i am so broke waiting for this damn loan to come through...and my morgage is bouncing up and frikken down as we speak...so finally i call the lender and discover that it has been at my lawyers office..FOR 3 WEEKS,SINCE BEFORE XMAS just WAITING FOR ME TO SIGN...AND she , my lawyer was leaving tommorrow....for A MONTHS HOLIDAY....leaving me FUCMEDQ....spl.(swear word)...anyway, i am sitting here and a friend came to the rescue to help with washing crusty old dishes etc and we thought it would be funny to roll up a bunch of my change...i'm a pack rat when it comes to change...just BECAUSE we know, our other girlfriend that owns the store here HATES FRIKKEN ROLLS OF CHANGE, cause she doesn't TRUST anyone on the planet so we just KNEW....she would have to open every single damn one and count it 3 times...all 142.00....ha ha ha talk about turning humiliation into something hysterical..well, ended up i just couldn't go through with it, but decided to go to the big cheaper store instead, dog food was on sale.okay, so i get home with 126.00 LESS CHANGE than what i left with...(they didn't EVEN count it!!!..cause they are TRUSTING) and then i get my peg out to warm up and when its ready...i survey my nice clean kitchen and very very full and NASTY garbage bag, hoping to remember to put it outside, cuase its REALLY NASTY ****...SPOILED FOOD ETC....anyway...i get the injection all ready lift my shirt to see my tummy, do the shot and think...whew...one more finally down...and threw out the two vials into the garbage bag and put the syringes in the sharps container..WELL..NOT 5 MINUTES LATER I RELISE I THINK I INJECTED THE WATER INSTEAD AND panic and start to rip open the VERY NASTY garbage.frantically.sitting in the middle of my "clean" kitchen floor surrounded on ALL SIDES NOW BY GARBAGE....AND I start to cry....and cry...and cry....until...i somehow get an image of what i must LOOK LIKE and BURST OUT LAUGHING AT MYSELF...finally, through much gunk and ukk...i find the vials..and i DID take the peg and NOT the sterile water....THANK GOD FOR LAUGHTER..and all of you..kimmy

[cindee]

Meant to say "dudett", sorry Vic.....it's the brain fog!!!!
prayers to all, Cindee

[Showboat]

Who said tx can't be fun???!!!??? tee hee....I can only imagine the image......too funny....we should all install "hidden cameras" to catch us in some of our "moments"""'.......we could send the videos into "America's Funniest Videos"
I hate to admit it, but I have been called "Pollyana" in my past......and I even hate to admit this more:  I LOVE that movie.....makes me cry....I need to get a life...heeeee and THANK YOU  for the welcome, I love this "place"

[ringading]

hey, thanks guys so much......guess i just get used to making fun of myself and all this **** that it finally all piled up....still though, i REFUSE to go off this no matter what.....i spoke to my hep nurse and  hemoglobin was way down,last week and if it goes lower they have to consider me STOPPING .....terrified to see what it is today...i even tried to fool the LAB by calling to get results from todays, cause they are ready....I JUST CAN'T LIE!!! and so when he asked if i was from dr. scullys office....i couldn't say YES......oh well....so what, if i "nick" myself am i going to bleed to death...at least the frikken animals will have something to chew on....right....
oh anyways.....lion king...and all other walt disney is on hold until further notice beffudd!!!
hey TIMBO...i'll work on a funny slant for today okay....theres ALWAYS something to find funny in sadness.....i'll get back to you..
thanks

[GALLIUM]

havent started the interferon run yet had some things to take care of and wanted one good blast of a vacation before i start.
so i will be starting at the end of febuary.
dr's still aren't to sure if it will work because of the other health issues, leukeamia, hyper parathyroid, adrenalin storms,
and thrombocytopena.
but gonna give it a try and not let it beat me.
yes their are many days i dont want to get put of bed but i make myself do it even with the wife ridding my case to just stay in bed.
it seems to help me to do something(even if its just a load of laundry), so i plug along.
of course a 30 min wally run can take me 2 hours but it gets done and i have the satification of saying to myself
it ain't gonna win i am.