thinking about quit treatment already

[rexx73]

hello dear community,

i realy start to thinking about stop treatment.
im just in week 2 but i feel so terrible that i cant imagine go on for
so many more weeks.
my main problem is the nausea,the doc gave me zofran im taking 3 times 4 mg, wich helps a little but i still hardly cant eat anything .
my weight is dropping and i was very thin already before i started treatment.
but when i stop what next?
i know in some time i will die, so this fear is the only reason is still didnt quit.
sometimes i think,it could be worse and maybe iam acting like a sissy.
its just so hard to see iam soon just of bones and skin.

regards

[his3707]

Whenever you do feel like you can eat, lots of calories and fat .whatever you can stand, but a potato chip wont keep much meat on your bones.  try ensure or boost.  That will keep nutrition in your body.  Sometimes all I could eat/drink  was some olvalteen  with milk

[ArthursMom]

I can't offer any better advice than has already been offered here, but, please know,  everybody who has treated understands what you're going thru.  You are not alone in this. This forum is an amazing resource.

[spectda]

Hang in there rexx. talk to your wife about how you feel, scream and cry and try to keep going if you can. Treatment will have it's ups and downs.

Many people use anti depressants or anti anxiety medication during tx also which is not a sign of weakness in my opinion. And as Hector said who cares anyway. This isn't a contest to see how much a person can take and you don't need to apologize that it's getting to you physically or mentally.

These meds are rough. use whatever tools you have at your disposal to rid yourself of this disease.
-Dave

[libzo2]

One of the most inspiring and amazing threads ever!!!!

[his3707]

I would get nauseated , light headed dizzy, pale, staggering,  and super nauseated about 30 minutes before I would take the inc.  My body knew it was coming.  I wouldnt let anyone else in the house use the bathroom in my bedroom.  I had wipes, hand towels , a stool to sit on and a small blanket within reach, and bottled water.   It was war!  But after I got it out, I alway felt much better,  It was an everyday occurrence for most of the time I was on it.  I have been off of it for quite a while and have only thrown up once.   I am starting week 33/48 tonight!   Hang in there,   See if you can get a viral load test done, you might already be und.  get lots of rescue meds.  I remember popping those nausea pillls like they were tic tacs.  At least that is what it seemed like!

[eureka254]

Treatment can be physically, emotionally, as well as mentally challenging, and it's normal to have ups and downs.  Just as folks here want to support you, I'm sure your wife would rather you shared your feelings rather than hide them from her, and crying is an expression of what you're going through, so I'm sure your wife will understand.  If you find treatment is making you more depressed than what is typical for you, you should speak with your physician; treatment can be psychologically debilitating and some folks benefit from anti-depressants in order to help maintain the course of treatment.

I echo can-do-man and Hector:  keep seeking options; talk to your doc about increasing your Zofran if necessary, or perhaps another anti-emetic might work better for you; keep ginger or lemon drops or bittersweet chocolate on hand (just a few things that worked for my husband); eat as frequently as you can, even if it means small meals often, and supplement with protein shakes or milkshakes to increase your protein and calorie intake and weight.  

Being a stage 3 or 4, treatment is probably more likely to be successful and better tolerated now than at a later time... hang in there.  Take it one pill, one symptom, one shot at a time, and don't just don't give up for today... hopefully that will carry you each day into another tomorrow.