Mental preparation question

[Trish77]

I'm sorry if this is too personal of a question to ask.  I find that the closer I get to doing treatment, the more I begin to grieve all over again.  Perhaps it's because I had treatment rescheduled because of my choice to switch doctors.  I don't know.  I have just found it's like starting all over again.  And now I find I'm going through the grieving process again.  That period of time where you come to grips with what this means for your life and the fact that you may never get what you hope to once treatment is done.  I still don't want to delay treatment.  All my reasons for choosing to proceed at this time are just as valid to me as they were when I made the decision back in the late fall.  I just find...that it's hitting me hard.  And as hard as it's hitting me, I am just as resolved to get this done.  No more talk of sword swinging and warpaint the first day of drugs.  Just this grit my teeth and get it done resolve because I just know this is how it has to be so that I can get to the rest of my life.  I feel like I'm mourning for the next year of my life.  I don't even know what my question is here.  Maybe...it's just too much emotion inside of me and I need to say it to people who I hope will help me deal..or slap me up side the head and tell me to snap out of it.  Whatever works.

[sfbaygirl]

Yep,  good for you. I had to color those roots too.  Didn't seem to hurt and helped my spirit.  The hair may look thin and those handfulls of hairs in the shower are so fun.  I did my own too once as I felt to bad to go to a stylist. Besides I couldn't keep appt's on tx.  So glad you look human again.....although look at that face. those circles and pasty skin.  Sorry just kidding. I looked like someone out Beetle Juice.  We always laughed here and it made me feel better. Little things like white roots make a big difference, I do know!  

Big hugs to you,
Linda

[jdwithhcv]

I went ahead and colored my hair about 5 hours ago.  So far no ill effects and I look and feel so much better!  Used L'Oreal (sp?) Excellence Cream.  Glad I did it, between the thinning hair and the long white roots I was looking pretty sorry.  Now I feel human again.

[sldb]

Iam not sure what type of hair color my stylist uses,but iam a redhead naturally. My hair has fadded over the years from auburn to a much lighter version this is why i color to tone down the orangeness.  I lost a moderate amount of hair with treatment mainly on top and on the sides ( where a male would generally loose hair )  I am 17 mths post treatment and the hair is now coming back. I would guess  the new hair is about an inch long.

[Forseegood]

hi, thanks for your wise insight...I too think that I can manage my depression just fine by hypnosis, meditation, talk therapy, cognitive therapy, the works, lol...but I don't know how well I'll do on treatment, so maybe that's when all bets are off...I'll try the Cymbalta though, seems like it's getting good reviews, but maybe once I'm treatment, things like that will work better like with you...have your wife wax that hairy back of yours, just make sure you video it and give us all the link...betcha you'll do better then that guy in 40-Year-Old-Virgin, lol.....hey, I'll take long eyelashes, mine are practically gone and I'll save on mascara....and sorry for the girltalk boys, but deal with it! lol....

[sfbaygirl]

You are welcome!  Yep, nothing could stop me either. That is a good thing....means you will put your all into tx. Don't let any Dr try to reduce your drugs. What are you taking Peg/Riba?  Do the whole dose of Peg, mine tried to lower it, b/c of weight. I just did the whole shot. Eat lots of fat with the Riba and get a pill box. The brain fog will get you and you may not remember when you took your last dose. Do weight based Riba, not a lower dose. If it were me I would sure as hell try and get some Alina to go along with tx. It is a drug that has little sx. Anyway, that's my advise for you.

You most likely will feel to tired to get a pedicure on tx, I sure did! I

[jdwithhcv]

I love pedicures but the tx weakens the immune system and I worry about fungal infections.  I had toenail fungus once and it was really hard to get rid of it.  Also the drugs (Lamascil and Sporanox) that clear it up are incredibly toxic to the liver.  I know I could never take them again, so I'm swearing off pedicures til my immune system is stronger.  

When I was on chemo for cancer they were real specific about no pedicures while on chemo - maybe I'm just paranoid but I've decided to wait.

JD