Confused and very depressed about hsv1, please help!?

Ghost6342

i'm 16/male/gay. back in summer 2010 i met up with an older man and he gave me unprotected oral sex. I had a blood test done 2 months later because i was scared i caught hsv1 but my test came back negative. so i don't have hsv1 or hsv2. but i know that a ton of people have hsv1 (almost 80% of people) I'm just really confused and really depressed about it because i don't want to catch this virus because i have diabetes, and i don't want to catch a bunch of sores around my mouth that keep coming back. but there's this other guy i want to be with, he's very sweet and he says he cares about me and loves me, but i scared he might have hsv1 since 80% of people do. I really don't want to catch it but i still want to be with him. It's tearing me apart inside.

Basically what i think is i have 2 choices. Be single/lonely my whole life and not have anyone or get a bunch of painful sores on my mouth that never go away. Can someone please tell me that I'm wrong if i am. I literally spent 2 nights in my room crying about this.

can someone please help me.

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gracefromHHP

most of my 17 year old's friends don't date and never have dated. you are not some anomaly! even my 21 year old, he and most of his friends don't bother dating either. Sure if someone interesting comes along, they chat them up and sometimes go out on a date or two but most of the teens I know, are not in relationships with others.

are you talking to a counselor about all of this?

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Ghost6342

but im 16 and i never dated ANYONE before! people my age are always in relationships. but i can't find anyone because everyone is straight! and theres no other gay guys! thats why i have to search online. but i can't even find anyone there. i feel even worse right now ):

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gracefromHHP

it has nothing to do with being gay dear. It has to do with growing up and your hormones controlling you more so than your brain - we all go through it :)

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Ghost6342

this is what i get for being gay :(

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Ghost6342

but something is still missing in my heart.
i need a man. you don't understand :(

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gracefromHHP

sounds like you have plenty of interests to pursue that don't involve sex until you are more ready for it :)

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