My girlfriend has HSV-2 genital herpes. I never gave it to her. She was diagnosed with it from a past relationship. I don't have HSV-2 herpes, but I think I may have HSV-1 ("Cold sores") herpes, as ever since I can remember as a kid I had three cold sores on my lower lip, small but annoying and they re-appear every 4-5 years or less frequently but they show up sometimes. I'm terrified of herpes, even though I pretend to my girlfriend that I'm okay with it. She is a very good looking girl and has the perfect body and a super personality. She was in tears the day she heard she had herpes, and I realised it would affect our relationship.
Anyway...
Every time she has an outbreak she tells me beforehand and we abstain from sexual activity. It's quite sad really. But I adore her so I accept it, and we watch movies instead, besides she's a good cook and makes us a good meal. We love food so it's an acceptable replacement (!) .
On Sunday 12th August, more than 3 weeks ago and about 10 days after her outbreak, my girlfriend and I had just started playing around (meaning kissing first). She got naked. I got naked.
She likes it when I spit on her vagina. I know it's naughty, but she saw it in some video and it turns her on. I bent down to spit on her vagina, and immediately felt a tiny drop of what I imagine was my own saliva, strike me back in my open left eye. I didn't really react to this at all but (maybe because I was a bit freaked out) we didn't have intercourse. I went into the bathroom and washed my hands with soap. I went to sleep in her bed. I sleep straight between the two pillows touching my face, never on a pillow. The next day the thought of having been splattered in the eye by my own saliva after it had first touched her vagina and then immediately afterwards my eye, really scared me. Could my saliva have first picked up herpes before it flew back into my eye? I did some research online and came across some sites that spoke of washing your eye with plenty of water if you were ever exposed to anything. So I did. I got in the shower and tried to keep my eye open while I let water pour over it. Quite a difficult exercise, as the water burns a little - I think it's chlorinated. Anyway, I stopped rinsing my eye under the shower, but continued to feel frightened. Anyway, in the days following the "spat-saliva-on-vagina-and-got-hit-with-a-droplet-of-my-own-bouncing-saliva-back" incident, I became super stressed. I stayed in-doors a lot, and on my computer researching everything I could think of on herpes. A lot of it scary. Your website gave good information on herpes and I thought I'd ask a question on this forum. After the spat-on/bounced-back-spit incident, I experienced a bit of blurriness, and both my eyes seemed to have become quite light-sensitive. However, I figured that I may have spent a lot of hours on the computer getting stressed over this. Also, I experienced only a little bit of redness one morning. I have had no other symptoms of any kind. No watering eyes, no red eyes, no pain, just, as I said, a bit of sensitivity to light for about a week - but again, it may only have been my over-active imagination. I did work late a few nights. I have been known to stress out for no reason. My questions are:
1. could my spit have "suddenly" picked up some herpes molecules in a split-second? I have even looked up how liquids bounce off a hand (in slow-motion) on YouTube, or how much vagina-surface my saliva may have touched before bouncing back.
2. is herpes transmitted so quickly that it can be picked up by saliva in a split-second?
3. could my eye suddenly contract herpes?
Yes, I am quite scared, please let me know what to do...