I am well aware of the symptomology associated with OCD. And yes, during my pregnancies, and the hormonal changes that come with it, such symptoms are exacerbated. That being said, I should clarify: I am well aware that I cannot contract the same strain of herpes twice. I have never had typing done, however, I know that if I have HSV 1, then I cannot contract a "new primary infection". However, my concern with the new lesion in a DIFFERENT area is that I may have contracted a *different strain* (HSV 2, for example, if I have HSV 1, or vice versa). I understand that, too, would not be a primary infection, but instead a non-primary first episode. I liken it to one who contracts genital herpes type 2, having already had type 1 (cold sores). If I were to contract HSV 2 orally (which I also understand is rare, but there are certainly documented cases), then even in the case of a non-primary first episode, my unborn child could still contract congenital herpes in the womb. You ** must** understand that neonatal herpes is EXTREMELY SERIOUS, and most often, deadly, regardless of how it is transmitted- congenitally, during the birth, or after birth by adults with cold sores who the kiss the baby's face. I am a mother, and my concern and fierce drive to protect my children should not be underestimated or overlooked. I am concerned for my child. Otherwise, before I heard of the serious nature of neonatal herpes, my cold sore outbreaks were nothing more than a terrible nuisance, and I would never have posted here. Also, for reference: I am married and monogamous. My concern with contracting a different strain of herpes stems form the (remote, I know) possibility (even if not it's not probable) chance that I could have contracted a different strain from my father who shared my food a few weeks ago (while he had an outbreak), or from the waitress who touched my plate and utensils just days ago. It has been my understanding that the virus, which lays dormant in the facial nerves, generally follows the same neural pathway back to the same or very similar location of previous outbreaks when the virus is reactivated. Again, I have only had an outbreak on my bottom lip, and suddenly, after 6-7 years of outbreaks, I have one on my top lip. This is uncharacteristic, and again, given the serious nature of neonatal herpes, and my being so close to delivery, this is a concern of mine. I just don't see how the same virus would suddenly appear in a new spot. I also understand that autoinnoculation does not happen except during a primary outbreak or very shortly thereafter, so I KNOW I did NOT "spread it to a new place". It simply doesn't make sense that an outbreak is occurring in a new spot, and I am close to delivery, so I am seeking as many answers as possible.
There is no such thing as a new primary outbreak. Once you have a particular virus type, like HSV1, you are immune to new infections with that type; and even if it might occur, it would not be a "primary" infection.
It is clear that you are seriously obsessed with herpes. This is an OCD problem, and a key feature of OCD is that there are always "what if", "yes but", or "is it possible" questions. I would suggest you discuss these feelings with a professional counselor. You are free to continue to ask questions as often as you like on this forum, but there is little point; the answers obviously are not helping you.