So recently i started sleeping with a new partner and after the fifth or sixth time we haf sexual intercourse i developed small (not painful) like pimples around my genitals and i immediately went and got checked. He told me he was clean. But i got the call back yesterday and i have herpes. So do i blame him? Can i blame him even. Is it my own fault from the past. Ive always gotten checked every few months and never told anything. I literally am scared to touch people, to use my families dishes, to touch myself, i feel so gross. I was dressed so nice hair done makeup done yesterday and after i got the call i had to take it all off because i went from feeling gorgeous to nasty trash. Who would ever want the girl with herpes? I know this is all a lot. But i cant even walk in walmart without feeling like everyone knows.