herpes or not?

[hawaii35]

Hi. I am a 30 yr old female and became pregnant in may 2009.  In June 2009 I became sick.  My doctors did some sort of panel of blood tests to see what I was sick with.  They told me that I tested positive with the herpes virus.  It was the IGM blood test showing that I was newly infected.  I didn't have any symptoms that I thought that related to herpes at that time.  Since September of 2009 I began to have these paper cut sensations on the outer labia and the area right above the clitoris.  These symptoms seem to last 2 weeks or so then start to go away but then return before I seem to get any relief.  I also had one blister that was tingling and painful that lasted about 4 to 5 days in november 2009.  I did not notice any scabs.  After the blister was gone that area of my skin hurt for about a month and a half to 2 months.  I have not had any blisters since then but continue to have these paper cut sensations.  I have had several IGG blood tests since then (the last one was in december 2009) all of these have been negative.  Is this Herpes or some other skin disorder?  If it is another skin disorder do you have any suggestions?  I am so scared and I need closure on this matter.
Thank you.

[hawaii35]

I know this is not going to kill me.  It is the fact that when I have doctors that tell me I do have it then they tell me i don't, also have doctors tell me that everyone in the world has it this it is just so confusing to me.  I want to understand hsv.  I want to be 100% sure that i don't have it because if i end up finding out that i do have it i want to be able to take care of it and take the necessary medications for it.  I want to be able to understand this virus and how to care for myself as well as my spouse.  Which i feel doctors don't really seem to know much about this virus from my experience.  I just feel i need to know the necessary precautions to take for my childrens sake as well.  I don't want my spouse to perform oral on me contract it to his face and then kiss my kids.  That is why this is frustrating.  I don't want my kids to be the victum.  They don't know better when some adult is going to give them a kiss, they just kiss them right back.  They are the victum.  Now if they are teenagers and make this decision on there own when they know someone has this virus then it is their fault not mine.  I don't want to give my kids hsv.  It's like if someone knowingly gives someone else a disease such as hsv or aids that other person is unaware of they are the victum.   And i'm sure if you have kids or if you have kids in the future you would be the same way.

[2terrified]

Here is a suggestion.  Try to think of it another way. The way you are so upset at the thought of having herpes makes me think that you think of herpes much the same way one would think about HIV.  The thing is...if you had it (which you don't obviously as Grace has interpreted your results many times) IT WOULD NOT KILL YOU. It is a nuisance.  I can tell you that personally.  But nothing more.  And if people in society would stop making it seem like having herpes is the end of the world, people like you can handle things like this in a much more positive and non-life altering way.

Because face it... how can you be happy always thinking about this?  It has affected your sex life with your husband.  That in turn can end up affecting your relationship in general. Then that can eventually trickle down to affect your children.  Your children are the most important people in this situation...any situation.  They can sense stress and tension.  (I can tell you that from personal experience also). Live for them and let go of this horrible mistake that doctor made way back when.  It is time to let it go. Live a normal life without HSV.

[hawaii35]

sorry for all the questions i know you are busy.....but i think i should win an award for all the posts....lol

[hawaii35]

yeah i know they do almost look identical but i think they are still going up.  he took the igg test this past week, we are still waiting for the results.  I know he probably should have took the test a long time ago.  It is all just so confusing.  In my opinion, i think that being pregnant the results are just taking longer to show up.   i just feel like we need an answer and to put an end to all of this.  I am definately going to follow up with more tests myself in a couple of months.  If you were to look at these results and have everything happen to you that happended to me don't you agree that you would be cautious until you knew for 100%.  Any idea what would cause a change in results they never seem to go back down to what they were originally in June 2009?  I was also previously tested with my first child for hsv2, like they do with all women who are pregnant and my results were 0.02.  So it was even lower then.

[c84M]

Not to disrupt into your conversation with Grace, but all of these results look almost entirely identical.

BTW, your husband still has never taken the test?

[hawaii35]

ok so i called my doctors on friday which was probably a big mistake.  i was up all last night crying and today too.  I have a copy of all of my blood test results which are as follows.  please let me know what you honestly think...

June 2009 hsv1 0.06
                hsv2 0.03

September 2009 hsv1 0.13
                         hsv2 0.05

November 2009 hsv1 0.06
                       hsv2 0.10

December 2009 hsv1 0.08
                        hsv2 0.08

April 2010 hsv1 0.19
                hsv2 0.17

To me it looks like my antibodies are going up.  What is your opinion on this?  how will i know for 100% if i have this or not?  please give me some advice on these results.  as always thank you so much.