Absolutely you are. The reason your sick is because it is killing the spirochetes and you have the herxheimer.Sad as it is, the sicker you get on doxy, the more spirochetes are dying which will ultimately make you better....I been there.God bless...…………..read on the pulse method..
It could be a herx, but you shouldn't just assume that it is a herx because you feel worse. All medications come with side effects. And in my own personal opinion, Doxy is the worst. But then again, I was taking twice as much as you. How do you feel worse? Are you nauseous, tired, ect..
I don't really see how your dosage is enough to initiate much killing, but everyone is different!
Hi, I just wanted to say that the depersonalization and anxiety could very well be from Lyme. I recently have been diagnosed with it and have mainly neurological symptoms. All of this really started for me with the disconnected woozy feeling along with tons of anxiety... I think my brain shut off.
If you didn't have Lyme, you wouldn't feel worse on Doxy. It does indeed sound like you're herxing. The part about feeling terrible, feeling anxious, and feeling unsure of everything are some of the same feelings I had. I am convinced they're part of the neuro symptoms.
Don't give up. Given everything you've said and everything I've read, I'm highly doubtful that you have something other than Lyme, especially since docs can't find anything.
Just take one day at a time. Hang in there and give it some time. Detoxing is important, as is staying hydrated.
Note: I never had any joint pain or muscle pain either. When I was hospitalized with a swollen liver, severe abdominal pain, neuro symptoms and brain lesions, my hospitalist said it was "Too unlikely!" for me to have Lyme and Babesia. Well, not only do I have them both, I had Bartonella, too.
Yeah, it would be great if we fit a nice, neat disease definition and had a clear, uncontroversial "positive" lab result. Unfortunately, unless you live in New England and got a bulls eye rash and swollen knees and CDC positive Western Blot, you're part of the messiness that is Lyme Disease.
about Herxing ... it seems to vary from person to person, depending on what infections you have, what meds you're on, and your personal body chemistry ... lots of variables.
Don't fear the Herx, just call the doc if it is more than you think makes sense. Above all, don't be adjusting meds on your own.
I'd also check with the doc or a pharmacist about taking any supplements (including charcoal) along with the meds, just to be sure that what you take doesn't somehow block or lessen the active effect of the antibiotics. (I think charcoal is inert and doesn't react with anything, but I'd confirm that anyway, just to be sure.)
Supplements, vitamins, anything like that should be okayed by the doc and/or a pharmacist. Pharmacists are usually pretty good on those issues, and are sometimes better informed than the docs just because meds are the pharmacists' focus. I am guessing charcoal is not a problem, but I'd still confirm it, along with vitamins and supplements. I know, you don't need another chore, so maybe someone can help you do that. Meds are chemicals; supplements are chemicals.
About your doc situation, glad you're hunting for an LLMD. Let us know if we can help. Hang on! You're doing fine.
It is hard for us to say because everyone is different. Usually you may herx after a few days on the meds. I am at the point now where I don't herx much at all. It use to be cyclical at the start. Every 4 weeks like clock work. That stopped after a few months.
There are natural supplements you can take to lessen the affects though like activated charcoal. It binds up the toxins to leave your body but must be taken 2-3 hours before or after you take your meds.
Glad you will find an LLMD. They will increase your doxy amount and give you other things to try. Also tell him you want to be tested for co-infections.
We are here if you have other questions.
Thank you Jackie for all that great information :D. That was really detailed and comforting, just what I needed!!
Thank you and thank you all for your words of encouragement and information :). You don't know how grateful I am to have you guys to confide in and talk to. It means a lot and its very comforting!
I'll for sure stick it out and continue taking 100mg of Doxy oral twice a day. I assume this is sufficient but still haven't gotten a true LLMD. Apparently the doctor I was seeing that was the closest to an LLMD is "quitting" so I no longer have a doctor, figures right? Just my luck.
I've decided to contact ILADS like you guys suggested. I send an email to contact [at] ILADS [dot] org asking about a referral for an LLMD in my area so hopefully that will find me a doctor before the first step of my treatment is completed and I can smoothly transition in with another doctor.
I have a few more questions if you guys don't mind? I'm aware that there's something called "herxing" when you start treatment and from what I understand that just means you feel worse, sometimes a lot worse, when starting or changing treatment before you feel better? I was wondering how long does this typically last and at what point may I suspect my treatment isn't going as planned? When might I expect to start seeing improvement?
Anyway thank you all so much for your overwhelming support and great information. It means a lot :D!
Thank you for your reply :).
I'm sorry to hear you're feeling worse, I know its really frustrating. But thank you for the info its at least encouraging and comforting to know I'm not the only one experiencing this and that a doctor finds it encouraging too!
Stay strong and I hope you start feeling better soon :D!
I believe the referral request for an LLMD name from ILADS is at:
contact [at] ILADS [dot] org
For what it's worth, I was on doxy for almost a month and I felt absolutely totally awful. I decided that I would prefer to have no meds at all and just live with lyme instead, if doxy did that to me.
I switched to minocycline a week ago and I feel a lot better, I can at last feel I am starting to make improvements now.
It's very scary when you only get your lyme diagnosis from shady doctors and you don't knwo if you can trust them.
Have you emailed ILADS for a registered ILADS member doctor near you? You are far more likely to get a trustworthy and convincing doctor that way.
The most important thing to remember is the herxheimer reaction (herx) which means you feel worse before you feel better. You are having a die off of the bugs which is toxic to your body which is what we all really want.
If you have a doc you trust you could call him for ideas to lessen the herx reaction. I take activated charcoal per my llmdwhich reduces those bad feelings.
Most of us were tested through igeneX and an LLMD. Your symptoms sound like Lyme and the fact that you are herxing confirms it.
I was lucky enough to have a nurse friend with Lyme in another state and I told her I felt so much worse. She told me that is good, that is how you want to feel, it means the doxy is working. I went from being unable to walk or open a cabinet to walking with a cane and now after a year no cane.
You are on the right path. Your symptoms are that of Lyme and it will get better. Try to hang in there.
Here's my short, amateur take on the test results:
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IFA:
while 'equivocal' is not a positive test, it is also not a negative test. A not-negative still has meaning. Not definitive, but has to be read in context with other results below.
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IgeneX IGM:
this looks for the immune response to a fairly recent infection, so if you've been sick a while (admittedly a vague concept of how long 'a while' is), a response on this test will have declined. Also note that even an "IND" [indeterminate] response means something: if it were nothing, there would a zero indication.
These are the bands on which you have responses, and what they mean according to a website called truthaboutlymedisease:
23-25 --- OspC (outer surface protein C), specific to Lyme (meaning no other infection would cause a positive result here
31 --- Osp A, ditto
41 --- flagellin (whip-like tail) of all spirochetes, so maybe Lyme, maybe not
58 --- unknown, but may be Lyme
83-93 --- specific antigen for Lyme bacteria, probably a cytoplasmic membrane
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IgG:
This arises after the early acute phase of the infection, when IgM antibodies are declining. Think of it as the army of occupation instead of the IgM invasion force above.
41 -- same as above
58 -- same as above
93-93 -- same as above
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In the IgG and IgM results, the more + signs, the stronger the reaction.
Note on the IgG and IgM results there is a conclusion, based on how IGeneX reads the test vs how the CDC reads the test. On both of your tests, you have a positive from IGeneX and a negative on the CDC standard.
You say above: "The only people who believe I have Lyme disease are the sketchy doctors I've seen and a private Lyme Lab called IGeneX which I know nothing about and releases none of its test practices."
Have you read the IGeneX website? Why do you trust others like LabCorp? Do you know any more about LabCorp than you do about IGeneX?
NonLLMDs and Lyme deniers generally don't like IGeneX because they turn out positive test results where so-called mainstream labs don't. But why the Lyme-deniers believe IGeneX is not to be believed beats me. I have never seen a detailed critique of IGeneX except vague statements that they turn out too many positive results to fit with the IDSA/CDC pronouncement that Lyme is rare, so IGeneX must be wrong: When you don't like the message, attack the messenger. Sadly, that works.
I would suggest you go to the IGeneX website and review their certifications and their explanations of what they do. If IGeneX were a ripoff lab, they would not still be operating, considering the IDSA types would have IGeneX shut down in a heartbeat if they had the proof.
And one final note: The CDC standards were developed years ago strictly for surveillance purposes, so the requirements to count an illness as definitely Lyme were set very high to avoid counting things that might be Lyme but aren't -- to keep the data pure. Epidemiological surveillance standards should not be used for diagnosis, but in the case of Lyme, that is exactly what has happened, thus missing significant numbers of truly infected people.
And ... one final, final note: Lyme is supposed to be a clinical diagnosis, that is, based on symptoms, aided by test results -- but NOT solely on test results. The IDSA/CDC docs say the faulty tests nonIgenex tests are the last word, but they are not for all kinds of reasons I don't have time to go into.
An LLMD using IGeneX tests diagnosed and treated me, so I'm a fan. Your results may differ. :) Good luck!
Most of the symptoms you are having are the same symptoms I was having ( mine is mostly neurological )
I didn't have the aching joints ... Etc
Mental cloudiness (I feel impaired and slow like I've been drinking).
- Lately an increasing feeling of dizziness and constant unsteadiness like I'm walking on a rocking boat or drunk.
- Fatigue but still able to function at a low level.
- Minor muscle twitching.
I couldn't walk a straight line to safe my life extremely off balance but the times I could walk a straight line I felt like I was on a boat!
I have been antibiotic treatment for about year and half but at the start of treatment it was a rough go ... All my symptoms went on complete over drive ( no balance , tremors , fatigue . Felt like had the flu , etc)
But slowly it got and has gotten better I still have bad days but they are shorter and less frequent ... I'm not expert but want to tell you to hang in there it will get better!
Please note that my comment was not to say that since my symptoms are similar you should have similar worries. I was just trying to relay that you are not alone, that I too feel worse and my doctor swears that that is indeed a good sign that the doxy is working and to keep at it.
Sorry, felt the need to clarify after referring you to my post that it might be some sort of insinuation that you should fear the same. Not at all! Half of me knows my fear is irrational... while ALL of me is desperately grasping at any lead to feel better.
We're gonna make it through this!
See post "lymph node update"! I am in the exact same boat. All of the symptoms that you listed above after starting doxy, I have them! I am on week 3 of doxy and my symptoms haven't lessened in the least (just getting worse and worse). That being said, when my doctor called with my surgery date I asked him about pain meds and told him how much worse I've gotten since being on doxy. He said definitely to not stop taking it, that it means I am most certainly fighting some sort of infection. Btw, he doesn't even believe that I have Lyme, yet told me to keep going with the doxy. I did test positive for a Lyme specific band on CDC western blot, but just #23. The uncertainty of all of this is agonizing. You are not alone.
Thank you :) and that's ok!! I know I learned that the hard way too haha.
Sorry, I'm too tired to do this tonight. More tomorrow.
But bottom line is: your tests indicate positive for Lyme, in my amateur view, and your symptoms are consistent with Lyme. .
Okay, I just learned the hard way that toggling back and forth between a message like this one and the test results you attached will cause complete loss of the message in process. Sigh.
So this will have to go in bits and pieces in a series of messages, since i can't remember everything in the tests in one go. More to come in next message.