Hi guys,
truly glad I found this forum and find out that I'm not alone. I've been dealing with the bad side of this addiction for a while. Like most of you here I used to get proper erections in my 18's, but for the last five years I've been deep in to the web porn, although I had few girls through that period I noticed that I started having difficulties. The most common scenario is I'm all hard during the foreplay, but once I need get down to business It becomes softer and I cannot go on. It happened at least few times and its becoming really frustrating. The worst thing is that I'm afraid that it will happen again. I
with the advent of mobile devices, like smartphones and touchscreens, its extremely accessible.
My neuropathy, combined with my dermatitis issue hit my like a ton of bricks last year and this year. And this actually prevents me from joining the "services", now that i have documented medical issues.
I had been searching for since feb several specialist, in my welfare system, and i am convinced these last 2"neurologists" were not interested in my symptoms, but are trying to point like i have a mental problem instead. They blatantly ignored my fingertips "altered sensations,a nd my loss of smell. I dont think i will be offered anymore tests or doctors, because of my mysterious "neuropathy"
NEUROPATHy still affects my penis, by making it itchy to the point of desensitization.
When i started out last year, of porn/mb my dermatitis wasnt severe enough to affect ED. i do finding porn /mb, when stopping it helps with ed.
I also realized that neuorpathy is extremely hard to diagnose( a possible cause), because it can be caused by various diseases, injuries diabetes, also most of them.
Just giving experience from someone who has Peripheraly neuropathy, and ED, porn/mb.
nice to see you back, its hard when you got porn now readily available, then ever. At first it was computers, now people have it on thier smartphones and touchpads.
I know how people were concerned about Diabetes or neurological induced, but in fact was suffering from porn and Masturbation ed.
For some like me, over this year(7months), i developed peripheral neuropathy, now i suspect autonomic(mild) neuropathy as well, which is known to cause ED combined with my addiction to porn/mb it has made it hard to know if im recovering or not. I must note that stopping frequent mb/porn does help. ED induced by diabetes is caused by Autonomic neuropathy, over the 7 months i realised the diabetes that induced ED has a name. of course neuropathy affects othe rparts of your body as well.
I have not posted in quite a while and I wanted to let you guys know where I am in life.
I have NOT relapsed I still avoid porn like it is poison. Occasionally I accidentally get exposed to some and for a brief moment I feel the chemicals in my mind raging before I remove myself from the exposure.
My Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction is completely gone and I am now able to enjoy the presence of a woman like a man with a non compromised by porn mind. Its like night and day and I am so glad that I found the resources and support online to assist me in my recovery.
For those of you who are deep in the throws of battle with porn, its truly mind over matter. I've dated a few women here and there and have not experienced any erection problems what's really funny is a had a woman over my place a few months ago and we were messing around. We didn't have sex but at one time she ask my why my penis was super hard and took a while to go down. I was so damn proud of myself to be 48 years old and have a raging erection.
Work and school have kept me busy its important to find something to do with your spare time. I hope to find a woman one of these days and start an relationship and catch up on some lost shagging time. 8)
As always I am here for advice, a sounding board etc. Don't hesitate to reach out.
I believe one thing men who struggle trying to quit masturbation-to-porn fail to realize that the desire to do it, the temptation will always exist. It's no different then those who are alcoholics/drug addicts. I know when I would try to quit I would wake up in the morning feeling horny, wanting porn; and I would tell myself, well there's that feeling, I still want it, so I guess I have to do it. I never realized that the desire to do it would always be there if not take a long time to go away. I figured if I wanted to quit or was going to quit the desire to do it should not be there. For years I didn't understand that. So many times after trying to quit I would be at home and the urge to do it would strike me even though I had sworn masturbation-to-porn off a couple of days earlier. I would honestly think to myself, well, I guess I don't really want to quit this addiction cause my brain and body are asking for it again. It's a really twisted train of thought, but it's something that I really did struggle with.
Guys the temptation will always exist; there is nothing wrong with that. There are scriptures in the bible that read temptation and sin are part of every man, it's the actions of what you do that define you.