It's been 5 days since I quit porn and masturbation. What motivated me to do this was an erectile dysfunction incident 6 days ago when I was in the act of making love to a beautiful girl. I have never been more embarrassed in my life.
As soon as I got home I went online looking for the reasons behind my problem, maybe some answers. I came upon this page and I have been reading all of the posts on this thread. I want you to know -any of you who have posted here before me- that I deeply appreciate the sharing of your experiences and understanding about this addiction.
Right now I'm experiencing a great deal of anxiety and edginess. My body misses my 16-year-formed habit. I do feel the 'cold, shrunken penis' other people have talked about.
Yesterday was a little bit more bearable than the other days because I experienced some success at work; which must have given me the dopamine 'hit' I used to get from masturbation. Today though, I'm back to feeling anxious and short of breath. I want a better life than this, I won't relapse; I can't.
please have been masturbating to porn for about 5 or 4yrs now without knowing d consequences. just saw it as a way to relieve sexual energy. 15th of October 2015 I masturbated to a movie Spartacus after dat day I felt d guilt and decided to stop... what scares me now is since that day till now have not had morning erections,spontaneous erections, my **** is dead and shrinks .... please help m so scared
I was reading my old post and realize how much happier I was when I wasn't PMO'ing. I am open to contact for talking via email or instant messaging, send me a private message, for support and encouragement.
message acknowledged Dan. no prob?
I have regressed and been on and off the porn/mb loop for weeks.
Currently I feel like I have no energy, I feel like crap, getting sick frequently and taking long to recover. I have lost my focus for work and school, I am actually getting poor grades now, people keep saying I look sad (when I am not actively talking to any one and putting on a conscious smile). I remember when I went 100 days without porn/mb I had so much energy my mind was clear, my thoughts were positive. I felt I was going somewhere in life. Now I feel like I am in a mental cage, with thoughts of giving up, my mind feels clouded, I can hardly concentrate for long periods, I am restless, and I did mention I get sick frequently as if my body is tired and cant fight off common viruses as it used to. make matters worst.. now I find I am searching for smut I wouldn't normally watch, as if what I need to shock me for that boost of dopamine has gotten worst depraved.
It is around last year this time, I discovered the information of porn addiction and ED. I am trying to get back on that winning streak again, so that's my aim now as it relates to this fight. I was feeling really down by myself, I know I should come here for support but I was reluctant. I know I do not want to keep doing this cycle. I need to stop and break free. Why do I keep giving in to the feeling? I have so much access to materials that clearly explain. Am I weak mentally?
Pray for me,
Guys i have a problem...recently i stopped masturbation...last time i masturbated it was 3 of october....but yesterday i tried to have sex with my girlfriend...it was terible...when we played everything was fine...but when i wanted to get inside her...i cummed and that happened 3 times...and we want to try again on thursday