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334926 tn?1436811523

4th loss in 13 months

Im back in this sad group. Ive had 4 losses in 13 months, you would think it would get easier but it doesnt. I am so numb by this. I tried not getting so attached as my history has been so bad.
I really thought this was gonna be it for us!
All week last week my numbers were rising really well. then monday hcg went up but no where near doubled. Started having pain in my left ovary/tube area (had a previous ectopic in 09 on that side and still have my tube)
My doc office kept saying baby is to small to feel but I just knew something was wrong.
DH insisted on going to the ER last night as he saw I was really in pain.
Found out at the ER that my hcg went from 235 in the morning (RE's results) to 154 at the hospital. the hospital said i have either miscarried or am going to.
Besides that pain I have no cramps and I was spotting lightly on and off all week before hand..no clots like my previous losses. Today I feel physically fine..no cramping or spotting. I am on progetserone shots so that could be why.
Just waiting for the RE's office to call me to find out whats next..Im hoping for a miracle but I know its over..All our tests indicate there is nothing wrong with us...why does this keep happening..?
Sorry I just need to vent!
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1274271 tn?1453262165
one of my close friends has had 13 losses, after the 5th she was able to conceive again and carry her baby girl to full term, her daughter is now 23 years old. Dont give up hope, have faith and i promise you will be blessed!!!!
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334926 tn?1436811523
So sorry to hear your going through this now to..it is the worst, I wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy..I hope you start to feel better soon and start ttc again if that is your plan and i hope you are blessed with a beatiful healthy little bean!
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I my self am going through the same thing rite now, I am soo down and out about it, I am soo sorry for anyone who has ever gone through this. you are all in my thoughts.
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1121273 tn?1325367975
I'm so sorry.  I know the pain all too well.  :(  You are in my prayers.
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334926 tn?1436811523
Thank you everyone for you response,
I am so sorry for you losses to. While we may move on and continue to try you never forget the love you have for your babies. And it definetly doesnt get easier thats for sure..I hope everyone will finally get their baby in the end.
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1400141 tn?1284986069
hi,
i just wanted to tell you i am sorry for your losses. i myself have been pregnant three times.. my expierences have been a little different but the result in the end is the same. i made it to 20 weeks with my son, i went into pre term labor and after a few days in the hospital my water broke and my son died 22 minutes later while i was holding him, i miscarried with my second and my daughter was my third, the same thing happened that time that happened with my son. she would've been 8 months old tomorrow and my son would've been two in october. the time doesn't heal the wounds. i still have not been able to get a reason either. just keep fighting and don't give up.
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1105753 tn?1374287348
I'm so sorry for all of your loss. I can't imagine going thru it so many times, 1 was enough. I will say a little prayer for you. I wish I could do more.
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Hi there.  Let me first say how sorry I am that your are going through this - I know first hand what it is like to live and breathe by the numbers - hcg levels, progesterone, etc.

Our stories are quite similar as I am currently pregnant for the fourth time in 11 months and am pretty sure I am about to miscarry yet again.  I can't tell you how many times I have said the same thing - why does this keep happening?  We are young, we are healthy, and the specialists can't seem to find anything wrong with us to explain our recurrent miscarriage.  

I wanted to tell you that I know how you feel - 100%.  It is rediculously hard to keep bouncing back, to remain optomistic, and forge ahead w/o thinking - What is wrong with me? Why can't my body do this?  What did I do to not deserve a child?  

Stay strong.  Whatever the outcome, you will get through it.  Surround yourself with love and support and vent all you need.

I wish you the best of luck and will be thinking positive thoughts for you.
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