Still missing the one I lost

[Jhanee]

On May 28th I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. While in the hospital I asked for him to be Blessed. When the Blessing was over I found myself in tears over the baby I M/C March 2010. I cheated like I should have two babies in my arms instead of one. It took days before I could think of the baby without braking down. Now I tear up, I love my son and he brings me so much joy. I feel kind of selfish because there are so many that have not been blessed with another or even first baby and I have three. Still I miss the one that I lost. Has anyone else felt this way are just have advice?

[sweetheart0686]

When you lost the baby how far along where you?

I had a mc in dec of 09 and was pregnant in 3wks.. I have a healthy baby boy. I knw what ur feeling... my sister in law n I were do at the same time in 09 and she has a healthy 1yr old and when I looked at my niece I felt cheated... but I realized that my angel wasn't meant... that he/she was sick n needed to go n "b fixed"
I got a tattoo of a baby angel wit 2 stars over it to symoblize the mc n my 2 baby boys...
When I see it it makes me remember how strong I am n what I can over come...
Best of luck...

[Jhanee]

Thanks for your comment. I have been thinking that I should do something to symbolize my grief.

[AnnieBrooke]

It is important to grieve our losses.  Maybe you just pushed the grief away in 2010, in the rush to try to get pregnant again to ease the pain.  Grief is hard work and we avoid it if we can, but until we do grieve fully, it can come back later in emotional moments and be very hard to deal with.  Did you have a service for the baby in March 2010, or some kind of memorial?  If not, that might be the place to start.