I need your support!

[ArmyPrincess819]

I went for an u/s today. My dr req it due to the braxton hicks I have been having. I went and the baby looks great and my cervix looks great. I was pleased. We also found out that it's a boy. We were ecstatc. So the tech went to talk to the dr. We looked at the 3d pics of the baby we got and he looks just like my dh. He is so gorgeous and perfect. The Dr and the tech came in and the dr then did a vag u/s and noticed that the placenta is covering my cervix. In time it should move to early to diagnose me with placenta previa but if in about 2-4 wks it does not move then I will be officially diagnosed with placenta previa. Which is pretty common I had it with my older son. The Dr did mention that my hematoma is bigger than it was a few weeks ago. At this point I'm at a high risk for a m/c. I guess your body goes through an inflamation stage and your body reacts to the bleed and trys to dissolve it but in the meantime that can rupture my membranes or cause an infection that can go to my baby and potentially kill him. I'm scared and fighting just losing it. I have now seen my baby perfectly and feel a bond with him I can't bear to lose him not now. I asked please is there any meds I can take to make this bleed go away and she said no. It would do more harm. She told me for right now everything is fine. She told me to play the waiting game and in the meantime very little activity period. I can't stand up for long etc. So I'm not pretty much bed ridden until who knows when. I obviously will do whatever the Dr tells me to but I have all this time to think. I keep thinking about how I could just wake up and lose him. I can't bear another later term m/c. I don't have the strength. The Dr felt so bad but she asked me to think positive. I just can't. I always tell you guys think positive. I need your help! Help me to think positive. What can I do to just know that everything will work out. My poor dh is so supportive but he twists what the dr says so he doesn't have to be scared or feel pain. He can't help if something goes wrong it will kill him. Our last m/'c in sept did him in. He is now on meds and in therapy bi-weekly along with our marital counseling. I know tmi but I just want to be honest with you guys. You are all like my family and close friends. Sorry to ramble I have really fought back the tears tonight I'm afraid once I start I won't stop! Hugs to you all,
AP

[tjoan910canadian]

You have to think Positive because that is what will get you through.........put your mind to simply refusing to lose this little boy that you already love so very much........make your body do it........my prayers & thoughts are definately with you and all mothers going through any kind of distress.....with pregnancy......special hugs to you....

[ArmyPrincess819]

Thank you Joy so much I appreciate you sharing your experience and showing so much support it means the world to me.

Tjoan910canandian- Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate everything you said.

[smr08]

Jeremy Michael, what a beautiful name. We all look forward to meeting the little guy. You take care of yourself and hold on to the positive!!

                   Many ((((((HUGS))))))
                         Lori

[EricaB28]

AP,
You better be relaxing right now!! Try to stay positive. Are you feeling a bit better today? I know it's easier said than done, but try to think about this in a positive light. I agree with Joy, live in the now. Enjoy him at this very moment. I'm sending the two of you some big hugs and some ssbd...You'll both be in my prayers :)

[ArmyPrincess819]

Smr08- Thank you. I love him and his name. I hope I get to meet him as well as you guys. I hope in July I'm positing up his pic. Thanks for the support!

ERica- This bed rest is going to be the death of me. Yikes. Also the bleeding it's been 4 wks now ENOUGH! I decided today just to take it day by day and try to remain positive! That doesn't mean I won't be moody though...LOL:. Thanks my friend for your support it means alot..

Big Hugs,
AP