It seems to be getting harder

[ttc23412]

I am having a worse time now than i did when i first found out, The closer i get to my due date the more depressed i get. i would be 33 weeks friday and its getting really really hard.

[ttc23412]

Thank you so much for all the responses, If it wasnt for this forum i would be more down than i am, its kinda hard to talk about it to friends and family because i feel like i'm just bringing them down or that i am getting on there nerves because it happend in march. My due date was October 10th and i had a missed misscarrage. I found out at week 12, and baby died at week 8. So i deffently know how that feels when a doctor tells you that your not pregnant anymore and you still feel pregnant.. But my doctor told me a missed miscarrage is a good sign, shows that your body held on to the pregnancy but for some reason the baby wasnt developing properly, which gives me hope that next time it wont happen

I feel so ashamed sometimes about the way that i feel, because its not there fault that i lose the baby and she is still pregnant. God has a plan for me and my husband.

:) thanks for all the support ladys, and i'm so sorry for everyones lose

[tobbeyj]

I have found myself being angry about my friends pregnancies too. It seemed like after my MC every women and their dogs were pg and this made me so mad. A girl at work told the rest of the staff that she was pg and this girl and I didnt get along very well at all - diff of opions as teachers and this made me mad. I was soo mad at mysefl for feeling this way. I am not a mean and hateful person but I guess this is how i dealt with my loss. I find that I am slowly getting more appreciative about it now that I am pg again. I am lucky to know when I am ovulating and it went quickly. When I went to my wedding course - I was told by naturalists how to get preg quickly and it has worked for us 2x on our first time. I will share it with you in  a new post. Check it out.

[boston_terrier_lover]

i was suppose to be due in october as well. it makes it even harder having a close friend who is moving along well in her pregnancy. i have so much anger about the situation, but definately NOT towards her or her baby. i earnestly pray for their safety. it's just hard knowing she's going through everything i should have been in the last couple months. i think what makes it harder is before she had found out she was pregnant, she didn't like the idea of carrying a baby for 9 months and felt sorry for those who were pregnant. granted, she was telling me this partly to make me feel better about my loss, but it was still how she felt. of course she and her husband are beyond excited about thier baby, so that's good. i saw them for the first time this past week since they found out, i couldn't look at her, i couldn't talk to her. i just wanted to cry so much. i should be 30 weeks now. this has been a very hard summer and it's taking a toll on my marriage...

i'm not going to say i know how any of you ladies feel, but i share in the experience. it affects everyone differently. i pray that we can all heal and move on while still remembering our babies.  

[DMarie919]

Oh I completely understand...I would be 36 weeks right now and I'm also having a hard time with it.  I totally thought I would be pregnant by now and it's really got me down.  I also have a bf who is 32 weeks pregnant which has been hard for me.   Unfortunately i think this next few months will be harder before it gets easier..first my EDD, then seeing the birth of my friend's baby....it's so hard to be happy for her and I want to be, but I just feel so sad and empty inside.  Keep plugging away...that's all we can do..and know that we are all here for each other.  Hugs!

[tobbeyj]

I had a similar expereicne too. Mt friend and I were due in October. She is having a great preg and making some terribly irritating choices like drinking while peg and its making me crazy. Hubby and I decided to cut them out of our life. Luckily we moved out of province so it was easy to do. I had my MC at 20 weeks  - fetas was 8 weeks and it was missed for all that time. It was horrible. I was devastated because the maternity benefits were still going to work even with being out of province and I was not going to have to work while we lived here etc. Everything was perfect until we lost the little one. I was obsessed with poor me poor me and we had alot of support - but not from ppl who has ever experienced MC's before at my age. So i was crying continuously while we moved and felt terribly about what I had went through, HUbby and I are 8 wks preg now- thankfully it happened immediately and I feel better already. I still thnk about the little one that was supposed to be born in oct, but then i think holy cow i have another in my belly now and I cant wait to meet this one you know. I honestly never forget that I was preg before this but I am happy to have been able to conceive again and cry less now knowing that I need to take care of myself for the new baby now.  I think that being preg again so soon helped me accept what happened with the last one and helped me put the last baby in my heart and prayers. Take care of yourself.

[crissy578]

I completely understand. My best friend had a miscarriage after I had my first miscarriage, she got pregnant again right away and I did also, but I had a miscarriage and she is stil pregnant. It is hard for me to ask her how she is doing and how her doctors appointments went. I know what you must feel like, I am struggling also with the same thing. Just keep your head up, and when it is your turn, God will allow it.

[ttc23412]

Its very hard when you know people that are pregnant, i have a friend who is [was] a week behind me, and when she found out it was a boy, i cried,  when she told me she felt the baby move, i broke down when i look at her pictures of her growing, and her u/s i feel heartbroken. Sometimes i think it would be easier not to be friends with her, but its not her fault. i dont know what i'm going to do when i see her baby.

[crissy578]

I understand tremendously what you are feeling. It is no fun in thinking that if you were still pregnant, that you would be now at this point or that point. I am struggling with that too. Just keep praying about it, and eventually it will get easier to deal with, although the pain will never be forgotten. Take care!