I spend more time on this title than my question..geez..

[meg321]

I have been made aware by my Dr. who is now treating me for anxiety, that my problem is OCPD....not in a million years would I ever imagine having this sort of thing, its how we think when we find out we may have MS.

I am somewhat of a perfectionist, I want things to be the way I want them, they have to a certain way and I can give you a very sensible reason for it.  Constantly trying to get my house organized and it never gets that way, so it makes me crazy.  And with being sick, there is so much to do that I never finish but I am always working on it.

This is horrible knowing that I may have to let a lot of things go.

But at the moment, I have hives on a third of my body,  I am short of breath, headaches,  thrush, eyes hurt and i am fighting depression.  And its the holidays and i am not ready.  I won't even go into what I still have to do.

Need I mention I am going to my daughters, the one that could make this much worse, we have never had a good Christmas.  I would cancel if it were not for my grandson, I promised him we would be there.  And we have dinner reservations, one of the smarter things I have done.

After absorbing all of this I am beginning to put some things together...

thanks for listening, meg

[meg321]

I am aware now aware that I do these "things" which is helping.  I know it will not happen overnight.

Im sorry, I didnt men to make it sound as my Dr. diagnosed anything besides my anxiety..he has just mentioned the other things..

I have only been using the vicodin for a short period of time and all of these actions have been with me for a long time.

I did go to my daughters and it was just fine at least for me and my hubby, i didnt get involved in any of their ongoing arguments.

thanks, meg

[supermum_ms]

this is the site i was talking about, see if this rings any bells

http://rehab-international.org/vicodin-addiction

Merry Christmas.......JJ

[supermum_ms]

I dont have much time to post but i really wanted to give you a HUG!

The other thing i would make sure ANY mental health issue is dx and treated by a psychologist or psychiatrist, and not a general doctor, seriously this is important!

I also saw you mentioned Vicodin and your possible or actual dependance, I would recommend looking up vicodin addiction and its side affects, this is a big possible culprit and should be looked into if there is even a chance that this could be the cause of your problems. I do have a really good site or research article on the subject (i found for someone else) if i've got time i'll try and find it for you.

Please get Obsesive Compulsive Personality Disorder checked out thoroughly before accepting this dx, IMO this is doesn't explain your sx, its in your best interest to get this fully checked out!!

Hugs...........JJ

[meg321]

I have been doing that today, just trying to stay with one thing and the rest can wait.  I do have to remind myself constantly, because I am used to starting 10 different  things and finishing nothing.

I think I am going to need help on this one..

And I have my granddaughter but she has two households and frankly, she doesn't need me as much.  But I plan on having a good time..hives, anxiety and headaches.  I will take my vicodin, that I am now addicted to..lol

hugs, meg

[Sumanadevii]

A suggestion....Maybe just do dinner and bring your grandson his gifts there?  He will still see you and enjoy the fun of eating out....Just be honest with your daughter.  It is too much...too long of a day for you.  

[sllowe]

Meg,

Your in good company.
I'm that way mostly and it is so hard to let go of what you know you can't get to.  
I'm not ready either and all the inbetweens. It's ok to not be done. Tell yourself this over and over. Besides, once we are really done w/our list of to-do's, Meg, we'll more than likely be 6 ft. under if you know what I mean...hahah

Hope that made you laugh. Just saying our list is never going to be finished - it's not in our nature to have an empty one. Put on something comfy for din and let us wish you an out of the norm pleasant visit there and just let the rest ride.

xoxoox
shell P.S. (can you tell I'm convincing myself to do the same all the while I type, haha)