Crying for no reason?!?

[mary_kay]

To: Jo, Ada, and Jen
Thanks so much for your encouragement.  I am back from my test!  It wasn't that bad, just as you all said.  I got to talk to the doctor (she did the test) after and have arranged for the report to be sent to me.  I did learn that I do have nerve damage in my legs (feet?).  My left hand has NO damage.  What is wierd is that my hand is the thing that bothers me the most, other than the fatigue.  Being left-handed, I am concerned that the numbness and loss of "ability" worries me. She seemed surprised to find no nerve damage and tried some things to check for weakness.  She said my hand is definately weaker than the other one. Duh!  I can't make a "three" and can hardly make my thumb touch my pinkie!  So...she has decided to have an MRI of my brain because she said a lesion could be causing it.  She has never mentioned MS, ALS, Lupis, insanity or any other possible cause for my problems.  Maybe she thinks she will scare me.  She seems to understand that not knowing is the worst thing.  One strange thing that happened is right in the middle of the needle part of the test I started crying right out of the blue!  I could not find any thoughts to connect with it.  I just cried for a good 15 minutes until her attempts to cheer me up distracted me enough.  What the heck was that about?! Anyone know or have that happen to them?
Love you guys!   Mary Kay

[mary_kay]

You are all so wonderful!  All I can say is ...bless you.  Stalk away!  And remember; "what goes around, comes around"  
Love and hugs,
Mary Kay
PS. Now I'm going to research what I can do (if anything) about this freakin' fatigue!!

[Momzilla]

Hi, Mary Kay!

I don't think we've 'spoken,' but I wanted to say hello, and let you know I've been stalking you for a while.  I guess it's less frightening for me to say I've been following your story.  Whichever...I've been meaning to comment, but just haven't yet.  Shame on me!

I'm sorry you've been ahving such a rough time!  Limbo stinks!  Enjoy an ill-timed cry when it comes.  That's becoming a new motto.  Relish it; then let it go.  I'm in Limbi, too, and know the pressure just builds and builds and every now and then, it must seep and weep out.  In the most peculiar ways.  You go, girl.

And I know your doc will get to the bottom of all this testing and symptoms, too.  Will comments more on that later when I hijack my hubby's laptop this weekend.  Computer trouble at home.  Better than hubby trouble at home....

Stalk you later!  (Kidding!)

Feel well,

Zilla*

[wonko]

I'm not sure I understood the entire train of thought, but in an earlier post on this forum, it was decided that cool people cry for no reason:

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/show/546377?post_id=post_3049435

Or take a look at the Wiki page:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pseudobulbar_affect

Of course, all of us gals are told through life that we're just hormonal, but sometimes it's interesting to think beyond that quick explanation, esp. if it's a sudden change.

Glad you got through the test.  For the MRI, you'll be in a small space with a lot of noise.  I have no problems with it, actually have fallen asleep in there, but I know for others it can be stressful  The scan can take 30-45 minutes.  Let us know if you need any tips for going into  the Big  Donut (that's what my mom calls the MRI machine, lol).

[mercyone]

I try to be strong, as strong as I can, but sometime while sitting alone in the doctor's little room - I feel overwhelmed and begin to cry - Then I compose myself. I'm not a crier, never have been - but crying is good for the soul. So cry away.

Mercy

[Rena705]

Hey honey...I am pretty sure that "insanity" is not a cause for the weakness in your hands tee hee...I have wondered that for myself but I don't think it causes the sort of problems we have.  

I agree with Ada on the emotional thing...we are realistically on an emotional roller-coaster in that one day we feel horrible and that no one can help and then we get a glimmer of hope from a dr. and we are on cloud 9!  It's all very frustrating and exhausting and personally I think a good cry once in a while does us good...it gets rid of all those bad pheremones and clears out the cobwebs and gives us the strength to pull up our bootstraps and get going yet again.  Don't fight it honey...it will make you feel better, relieve some stress and if it happens in public...heck, it just makes people wonder what you have been up to and if you got caught! he he

Like Ada said...we are here for you so go ahead and purge...we are here to listen honey!

Lots of Hugs,

Rena

[mae1]

I'm sorry to here your having such a rough time right now....
thank god we have each other in thee times. hope today is well for you.
hugs
april

[spastic]

Hey Sweetie, I am going to tell you it is okay to cry, even in the weirdest places or times.  Sweetie, right now you are going through a lot of things and although you may be generally feeling okay about everything, your sub-conscious will get you everytime.  I refer a lot to the grieving process because essentially we are grieving for our lives, our health, normalcy, and it is a process that we all go through when dealing with a chronic condition.  I have broke down at the worst times, at work in front of customers, in waiting rooms, at restaurants so I totally understand what you are going through, Sweetie and if you ever need to talk, I am here for you.

Love Ya,

Ada