Scared to death. I do not want to die in my thirties.

[Rogolavet]

Please if anyone has time https://www.medhelp.org/posts/Undiagnosed-Symptoms/Neurological-problems-so-scared/show/3076140 to read this. I know it is long but I am scared ti death. One other thing I have been noticing is shortness of breath that comes and goes and short gasping for air, but I always thought it is my hiatal hernia and anxiety, because I was thinking ms breathing problems come later, not when you are functional. I still can walk long distances, even run same as previous years (i am much obese so it is not long), I work out in gym and did not lose strength in regards with lifting weight but I tremor doing so. My neck and upper body tremor when I yawn, and on every extension od body it jerks and tremors. It cannot be all in my head though I am obsessed with ms even before this eye thing years ago happened.
I am so scared I will soon become bedridden without lived even half of mans life. I am 30. But this seems to progress fast since my breakup and than some other stressing events in my life.
I do not know what to do. I am desperate.

[Rogolavet]

I am under constant stress for some time and it can exacerbate symptoms, but what if it is progressing too quick now... I had as you can see in long post some symptoms for a long time, but these new ones are too much.

[Karenhosler]

Please understand that MS is not a death sentence even though it fills that way at times. Yes, you can go downhill sometimes, you can be in a bad flair. Please talk to your neurologist about your fears and how you are feeling. I see a therapist once a month, and am on an anti-depressant that helps. I used to see my therapist once a week. Finding that you have MS is scary and numbing and so misunderstood all at once. Don't lose hope.