Feeling guilty

[mokibear]

Hey everyone. I'm still around and lurking in the shadows but boy oh boy, is the forum ever moving quickly. I'm finding it hard to keep up. I do so want to be on here more frequently but things have been very stressful for me lately. My health issues were finally getting better but then where I work we were having a lot of issues with girls going AWOL and one girl having to be taken away in handcuffs for assault on another student.

I have had to work some overtime during this which has brought my fatigue back on so I'm finding it difficult to keep up here. The girls have also been sick a lot the last couple of weeks and last night I finally got sick. So after mega garlic, vitamins etc., I have been able to fight it so far other than now I sound like Minnie Mouse. haha

I'm still waiting to hear about my getting my appointment with the ms specialist so I called the neuro the other day to see what was going on and apparently they are still waiting to hear back so I'm getting a little frustrated with that. Now I found out that my regular doc had a massive heart attack and died so I'm without a GP now too. I was looking for a new one but there just aren't any in this area and at least with this guy I could get my pain meds. So I'm not too sure what I'm going to do now.

I am glad that my last post was able to bring you all smiles and I am hoping to post and respond more to all of you. I just need to get through this cold and then I should be good to go. So know that my thoughts are always with each and everyone of you. I think of you all daily and pray that things are as good as can be with you.

To the newbies, I too welcome you to this great place and hope to get to know you better real soon.

Hugs
Moki

[mokibear]

Hey Auntie Quix, I am waiting in anticipation for your great comeback to my last post. haha I too wish you were here. Selfish, you bet and proud of it. But going to you sounds even better. We got up to a balmy -10C which would be about 14F. Now they have a winter storm watch for Sunday and Monday, so ya can I come!lol

I think part of the problem was that all of a sudden things took off for me with getting this last neuro appointment and actually being believed and told that it is most likely MS. Now I am waiting once again and no family doc now to boot. Sort of took the wings out my sails. Feeling like a deflated balloon at the moment. Then the stuff at work and yada yada yada.

This place will never be a source of stress. I know that right now I can't keep up and was feeling bad, hence the post, but I just wanted everyone to know that I am reading and sending love and prayers all the time. I am stubborn at times and not being able to do what I want when I want is still an issue for me. I am working on it though.

Thanks Quix, you always make me feel better.
Luv ya too
Moki

[Quixotic1]

Oooh, it does sound like things sort of collapsed around you.  That happened to me last year when my doc upped and retired.  Getting the pain meds became a huge issue.

Honey, don't worry about keeping up with the forum (and this goes for everybody).  Just answer the people you know, chime in if there is something you want to say, but DO NOT let this place be another source of stress.  We'll be here when you're ready and have more energy.  I'm dismayed at the lag in getting the MS doc appointment.  I know they can book out for months.

Wish I was there, well, maybe not.  Our temps are finally getting into the upper 40's and the bulbs are showing.  Why don't you come here?

all my luv, Auntie Quix

[mokibear]

I live in a small town and there aren't very many doctors here. This guy was semi retired and I only got into him because my mom was seeing him.He wasn't a good doc, but at least I could get pain meds from him without a fight. No one else is taking patients and the biggest place close to me is the same. I just hate having to go to the er just for meds.

I just want things to start picking up for me. Anytime soon would be great. haha Thanks for responding so quick Rena. I know that you have been having a rough go yourself and although I have not responded as much as I wanted to, I have been thinking of you.

Think I'm going to head to bed soon. At least on here you don't get to hear me do my Minnie Mouse impersonation.lol

Lots of Hugs right back at you.
Moki

[Rena705]

Sounds like the road has been pretty rough and then for your g.p. to up and kick the bucket...just not fair at all.  Honey, is there not any other doctors in the clinic where your g.p. was?  Is the office still open?  You may be able to get a referral to a g.p. that might at least help you with your meds...I can't see them just leaving you in the lurch like that..just an idea...hope you are feeling better soon my dear...get some rest, we are going to be here, we are not going anywhere, take a break, sounds like you need it and you most certainly deserve it!

Lots of Hugs,

Rena