Well, I made it. It was fun but also very difficult. The meeting location was changed from the hotel to the Loyola law school. I already felt the panic set it...I was told it was a "quick 5 minute walk". OK, a quick 5 minute walk, turned out to be a very difficult 1/2 hour walk. I pushed myself WAY too hard, and am severely paying for it.
We went to China town for dinner, and the escalator was broken. I didn't think I would make it too the top. It was not only physically difficult, but mentally embarrassing. I was with a group of women, who don't know of my diagnosis, and felt just like a "lazy" person. My friend told them about the MS, and then I got all the "sorry eyes" on me.
Just a challenging time, and makes me so sad to see how far I have gone. I am 41, but truly the 80 year olds were running by me. Makes me very scared for the future.
Then as a surprise, hubby got all of us tickets to the Indians game last night. So, after getting home, walking what seemed miles to long term parking to find my car, then driving in town to meet hubby and kids, we went to the game. He dropped me off at the gate, and I waited for them to come. I could barely make it to my seat, and I asked if he could find a wheelchair to rent for me at the ballpark. He laughed, he thought I was joking. I was not. He saw all the trouble I was having and still kept urging me on. I just feel at a loss. I don't want to feel like the left behind mom, and that is what it is starting to be.
I also am missing my mom terribly today. I keep picking up the phone to call her, and then it hits me. She has been gone 5 weeks now, but I still don't think it has sunk in.
Ok, enough of the poor me's. Just saying hello again,
Michelle