Mental Disbalance

[Loranzetti]

Big issue while driving, going out, walking. unsettling feeling:

Weighted and tingly frontal lobe area (during occurrence)

clenching but also tingly occipital lobe area (during occurrence)

My temporal lobe also clenches

Sense of fainting, loss of finger motor control (fingers lose sensation), feet lose sensation in the same manner......extremely intense panic attack ensues.

Here are the things that happened to me in the past:
Unfortunate drug use (MDMA) almost caused an overdose. Occurrences started after the near-overdose experience.

During the near overdose:
extreme systemic weightlessness and hypersensitivity to sensory inputs (touch and visual only)
Pupils overtaking the cornea area, light input was distorted, squiggles of reality were seen as if enduring an intense  visual hallucination (no actual non-existent images were seen, just distorted reality). Light came in the eye and was translated into a soupy mess.....imagine seeing through a lens of oil and water with very similar dynamic viscosity or seeing super heated water surrounding cool water, this was the distorted lens.

These unfortunate events aren't replicated in my daily life, but an advanced form of perhaps changing neuro chemistry ensued and too much visual and physical sensory input will cause a mental relapse.

I need help, I know what I did was wrong but I am living in a shell of my former self, a slave in my mind and I cannot drive long distances at all, I barely can drive short distances and I will still feel panic.

No one has helped, I have had all the brain scans: 2 MRIs, CAT, EEG. I have had my heart monitored, I have been to an ENT, I have tried to see a psychologist/psychiatrist (lousy)......I have seen the professionals and have been rejected. THIS is not the black and white zebra stripes they teach you in Med School......this, like so many other issues, are REAL things that affect Humans worldwide.....we just know so little about how neurotransmitters and neurochemistry. I desperately need help.