I've never wanted to talk about it, but I've seen "symptoms" like mine more and more online now, usually involved continuous rocking. Since I can remember, I've "zoned out" with music and paced for hours, or ran back and forth from wall to wall in my bedroom. It was like my dirty secret as a kid and into my teens; I'm now 35 and sometimes I still do. It's like I'm in a different life when I do this and if anyone has seen the movie "Suckerpunch", it's literally like that. I become someone else and it's like I'm in some kind of fantasy. I zone out and nothing else exists. I'm an artist and a writer, and the only good thing is that it produces the effect that I SEE what I want to paint or LIVE what I'm writing. I've destroyed my body doing it. I have severe arthritis in my legs hips and wrists from slamming into walls. I sprained my ankles many times doing it, once to the point I've ruined my left foot permanently but I kept running on it...it's like an addiction. I have athsma and I do it until I can't breath and just stand there gasping. I've never wanted to stop because it's amazing to be able to escape and be anything, anywhere. But, well, I've caused a lot of health problems to myself. If anybody has this problem, I'd appreciate some advice on how you control it without mind-numbing meds. Seen a lot of things about people simply rocking back and forth, but none who run from wall to wall. Happens when I get excited, too, but mild without music. My family knows and my husband has caught me. I feel like such an outcast. Thanks for any advice, info, or even stories.