I'm a 16 year old female and I'm also wondering if I have HOCD. Only I've been dealing with this for a whole summer. It goes up and down but for the most part it's almost always there. I've cried a lot because I'm just so scared and worried of becoming gay (lesbian) or even bi. I just don't want be gay/bi because I know I never have been and it's just not like me, it makes me feel uncomfortable to think about it. But likely if your so worried about this and you feel you need help then go see a counselor. There here to help you, that's literally what they're here for. They can diagnose you with OCD or HOCD, but since HOCD isn't yet an official, clinical diagnosis you could get treatment for OCD like medication and therapy.
Hi there. Read my post "Anatomy of a Horrific thought in Pure O" that I will repost to the top of the forum. It will explain to you why the "testing" you are doing is actually keeping you in the OCD loop. I think since this has been with you for a while it is probably time for you to see a psychologist. Talk to your parents about this so that they can make you an appointment. The thing to remember is that if you said out loud "I'm gay" you wouldn't want to run off and find a boyfriend and become intimate with him. And if that is the case, then how on earth could you possibly be gay. You need to let the thought wash over you. Think it and then say "WHATEVER." Don't try to analyze it because if you do, you will be stuck. You need to stop it when it starts.
The OCD Workbook: Your Guide to Breaking Free of OCD can teach you some techniques. Also the book Self-Coaching by Joseph Luciani is a good one as well.
Sorry that I am late in replying but thank you to the both of you for reaching out and helping me. As both of you probably know OCD is a terrible mental thing to go through. I am a 16 year old guy and while you might not think you've helped, you have big time.
I'm glad I could be of some help though it wasn't much, relating to you with a little of my story isn't gonna help you any but I also wanted you to know you weren't and still aren't alone with this problem, a number of us on this forum suffer from HOCD or wonder if they are suffering from HOCD and if they are on this site and questioning and wondering about this then they most likely do. I just wish I could be of more help but though I think I've suffered from bouts of OCD before, I'm not an expert on it and I'm relatively new to HOCD so I don't know much about this specific "type" of OCD. I'm only 16 and I haven't had this for too long but I've had it long enough to cause me damage. And i wish I did so I could give better advice. I'd like to get diagnosed and get professional help and treatment but right now my family cant afford it so again I advise you seek help from a counselor or psychologist if you haven't already. OCD is just terrible and no one should suffer in silence. Have you talk to your parents at all? Made an appointment? I hope you break free from this terrible obsession as get better. Good luck to you :)