Hocd ruining me

[Darko90]

Hi
Im 15 year old guy,and i have hocd for 3 years i think.I always consider myself as straight,and i alway wanted to hawe wife,kids.I remember when i was litle i was telling girls that the are going to be my girffriend :D .All started in  school.I was very shy,and weak kid and worst at sports.Then my schoolmates told me 'you arent good at sports you must be gay'.Thati was started thinking 'what if im really gay'.When i think about that i get terible anxiety and sometimes i cant sleep.I always have to check do i still have erection to women,and when i have anxiety i must go and read some article about hocd to see that im not gay.When i walk and see someone behind me i start thinkng 'do i walk like gay,i must walk like straight' and then i look ridiculous.I read somwhere that i must act gay and then i will defeat hocd.I went on omegle and started chating like gay and other guy told me can we chat dirty and masturbate.While he was writing i didnt like it,but my mind said to me 'you like it,you are gay'.Then i got erection and masturbate.When i finished i got terrible anxiety,and all night i couldn't sleep.Right now i have crush at one girl but i cant approch her beacuse of my hocd.Also i did online hocd test and it was positive,but sometimes my mind tell me 'that test isnt true,you are gay'.I dont have anything against gay guys,just i dont fell like gay.I forgoten to say when i feel confident and good in my skin,i dont have these thoughts and erection to guys.Also when i look at guy i never think'wow he's hot i want to have sex with him' i think 'it will be good to have body like him girls would love that'.Pease help me,this is ruining my life.
PS. Sorry for my english,i use google translate :D

[JGF25]

Here is one good article about OCD

http://www.wsps.info/index.php?catid=0:&id=82:ten-things-you-need-to-know-to-overcome-ocd&option=com_content&view=article

Here is another regarding HOCD

www.brainphysics.com/yourenotgay.php

[Darko90]

Thanks,it would be very helpful to me.

[JGF25]

I'm headed to the beach.  I will post some links to good articles when I get a chance. In the mean time check out other similar posts because I have used the article links before.

[Darko90]

In my town we dont have psychologist who treat ocd.Can someone please give me some tips,its ruining my life??

[JGF25]

OCD is all a mind game that we play on ourselves.  Where do you live?  Do you have access to a psychologist in your area?