Yes i tried i guess this time around it just felt very real. It just gets hard at those times to accept its OCD doing this to me
I can't remember our earlier conversation but I'm sure we addressed these same points. Did you go back and read through it?
Please someone help give me some advice i don't want to feel like this when my family comes in for christmas. The thoughts keep coming i keep mentally testing myself to attractive male actors to see if i find them attractive by imagining them naked and sometimes i think i really do and really get freaked out. I know this has to just be my OCD but dose it really have the power to do all of this ?
I also forgot to mention i keep doing mental testing and trying to think about the images in a sexual or arousing way and sometimes i feel like I actually can. Dose ocd have the power to do this. Also i test myself by picturing a guys butt or genitals to see if they disgust me and i compare them to a girl to see if which one i like the most and when i think about the guy its like I make the image to be more attractive looking or something idk I'm lost....please help I've exhausted myself and lost all hope. After one full year of constant checking and testing I don't know whats real anymore. I hope this is just OCD i guess I'm just having a hard time believing it can make me think and feel this way. Even though I'm terrified afterwards. Atleast i hope/think I am but thats just the ocd talking again. Please help.