I've been with HOCD for almost 3 months. It's terrible. I've been seeing a therapist, but he doesn't have experience with HOCD and sometimes freaks me out. However, I've been trying Exposure an Prevention Response treatment for my own with seeing some tips in Internet. I'm feeling kinda better. I accept the homo thoughts and agree with all these thought, also i told to myself that "I'm gay" and after all I still being attracted to girls. But, sometimes, some thoughts from the past appear. Like a time in the gym seeing a man a lot, just because I admire him, but in my head pops a thought that tell me that I liked him and I was attracted to him and these freaks me out. Anyway, there are appearing a lot of thoughts from the past that make me think I has being gay since ever, but I doesn't knew it. I've been always attracted to girls; and never had an sexual "fantasy" whit a male before the HOCD started in my mind, anyway, this "fantasies" are unpleasant and disgusting. What can I do with these thoughts? The HOCD distort the past? Some other tips for HOCD?