Hocd

[Lexia1515]

Hi. I am a 15 year old heterosexual female. I have been in agony for the past 2 months with non stop thoughts everyday that I might be homosexual. Seeing a psychiatrist is not in the picture and won't be because my mom will not bring me. I currently have a boyfriend that I have been with for more than a year now. I want these thoughts to go away and I want to feel normal again. I am almost more than sure that this is hocd but I have not been diagnosed by a professional. I never have liked girls in my entire life and I remember having crushes on guys even as a little child. I even kissed one when I was about 5. I do not want to lose my boyfriend because I love him very much but the thoughts are even making me think that I'm going to end up not wanting to be with him. And I don't want that. Help!

[Lexia1515]

Thanks! I will try that. Today is much better than yesterday because I am realizing that even as a little child I loved boys and that is not going to change. But also when I even look at girls I feel like there is a possibility I had a secret crush on them with out even knowing and that scares me. What should I do about that?

[123tushar07]

Everyone gets scared of exposure therapy when he gets to know about it because in the therapy you need to face those thoughts from which you want to run away as far as possible ,but running away is not the solution, solution is to face the problem.
Ideally you should see a psychiatrist or psychologist but if its not possible then you can take help from the book"Overcoming Obsessive Thoughts: How to Gain Control of Your OCD "by christine purdon. Its a very good book for pure o sufferers.

[Lexia1515]

I'm also wondering if I'm the only one who is scared to do the exposure therapy? Right now my mind is making everything seem so real and I feel like if I do exposure therapy I am going to turn gay