Hi i am 20 years old and I have been reading a lot about HOCD and feel that i have it. Until recently i have been comfortable with my sexuality and have liked every aspect of girls my entire life----(although, i have never had a girlfriend, just havent found the right one)----. I was able to say, "He's a good looking chap," with out any thought afterwards. But now i feel the effects of what i presume to be the ocd.
One day somebody said some "gay" comment and for what ever reason it had stuck it head the rest of the day. i kept having thoughts of, "Maybe i was gay and didnt know it," and it has really caused me a great deal of distress. And the mention of getting a tingling feeling in the groin does happen to me, it sucks. This is why i am convincing myself that i am and always will be straight, because these thought are not "arousing" or "pleasant." I just would like to know is this truly OCD cause i am going insane.
P.S. i had one last note, i feel that when i look at girls, i get stressed one when i cant get an erection. I feel like maybe i am putting too much pressure on myself to try to think straight(no pun) and see if i feel anything. I feel it is the opposite of what i am going through when looking at guys. With guys i am checking to see if i anything happens, and with girls i am trying to make something happen.
Is this OCD? and has anyone had my experiences