you may have battered woman syndrome but u may develop ptsd also do u have nightmares flashbacks?
i cannot remember my dreams i take alot of sleep meds to sleep 3 temazapam and 3 clonazapam 1 mg temazapam are 15 mg i think but i went back to that community recently and it was like leaving all over again i needed to go to the house to get some clothes but waS just to shaken up to do it. Just going to my doctor there was enough i don't know what to do i need my stuff but just the thought of going back to that house is too much he texts me messages and acts nice there but i know in person it is a different story it sounds like you are going through much yourself i don't want to trouble you with my worries its just that i really want to find myself again i feel scared to go out some days. Screaming slamming and banging were his way of controlling me and my dog he also told me constantly that i couldnt do anything right even put away groceries i would put them away and he would rearrange them i only did one thing that he didnt complain about that was clean the toilet
I suggest you get yourself to a therapist immediately for help. Do NOT under any circumstances go back to that house. Go to a shelter for abused women and stay there and get their advice. It will only get worse if you don't get some help for yourself. You MUST help yourself.
Thank you i am doing something like that i have a friends house to stay at for now it is safe and i am doing everything i have been told to do seek legal counsel went to a counseling center but they were not much help she advised me to go to a woman's shelter where they have more people to help even a counselling once a week i was just to weak to go tonight but plan on going next week they want 8 dollars every time and i am currently just receiving social assistance as i am unable to work due to lupus migraines and a whole host of other medical issues but the worst are my nerves he texted me today like nothing has happened i couldn't understand and it sent me into a panic attack. I feel spiritually physically mentally financially bankrupt. Now he thinks I am coming home but i spoke with him on the phone and told him no i will not be your verbal doormat and you have no right to yell at me. so i am staying strong having people out there really helps. i was also sexually abused as a child by my mothers uncle. my mom was recently diagnosed with lymphatic leukemia and it breaks my heart to be away from her we used to be a block away i do at times have flash backs of that and some days just sit in the corner and don't leave the house its like i am scared even though he is past on now the funny part is i loved him so much and still do my mom doesn't know and wouldn't believe me anyway so i don't think i will tell her i am just taking it day by day and now i feel like suicide was not the right option but today after the text i just fell apart and had a 3 hr crying session which flared up my tmj joint in my face why do people be so mean? thank u thank u it is so nice u took time to respond
I just read your reply to ivgirl and wanted you to know that I really enjoyed reading your reply..People at work thought it was funny to come up behind me and make me jump out of my skin at various times of the day. After a while they got bored with it and just saved it for special occassions like lunch time or if i was standing up making a presentation to our Team. I could never figure out why this made them happy, but was even equally perplexed when a fellow worker would ask why I was so darn jumpy. I didn't know , really did not know but now after being involved with therapy I came to see that is how I was living almost every minute, always ready to utilize the fight or flight urge. Thank you for taking the time to reply to some of the members here.
Thank you very much for saying that. I hate that your co workers like to make you jump when they scare you. If they only knew what a different feeling we have. My husband does that only sometimes but I know he does not fully understand PTSD. There are times when I have jumped around with my fist ready to just hit someone or something. It is so not funny to us. I am so glad you chose therapy and are doing much better. I know my therapist says that I was the one who did all the work but I credit him with saving my life. I have strong faith in God and I know He was with me the entire time because I can look back now at the journals and the books I read where I underlined sentences and I am just amazed how far I have come. My therapist has since retired and I am getting in with another one because the older I get the more just little situations make me angry and I need some direction in how to handle my thoughts and actions...should I just sit and count to ten or just talk to God for a minute, etc. It's like I just can't control my anger and I know it is just a part of the PTSD that is showing up again. Thanks again and I am so happy that you are doing better and realized what it was.
I hope you are doing well. I keep looking for a post from you. I just wanted you to know I was thinking about you and hope you are having good days.
hi there sorry no post from me in some time really sick they say i have cirrhosis of the liver now it is really hard staying here i have a bed on the floor but my friend is pretty sick himself he tries to take care of me the truth is we both need help i don't know what to do i was supposed to travel back to my small town today for a dr appt but the roads are too bad it is really hard to find a family dr here i am waking up in middle of night but now not sure why last night i coulndt even swallow my water i am having a telephone convsult with him today but i dont know how much help it will be
hi there sorry no post from me in some time really sick they say i have cirrhosis of the liver now it is really hard staying here i have a bed on the floor but my friend is pretty sick himself he tries to take care of me the truth is we both need help i don't know what to do i was supposed to travel back to my small town today for a dr appt but the roads are too bad it is really hard to find a family dr here i am waking up in middle of night but now not sure why last night i coulndt even swallow my water i am having a telephone convsult with him today but i dont know how much help it will be
I am so sorry for your diagnosis. I so wish you could get the help you so need. Did you get to talk to the dr?
yes i did but not much help he almost started getting angry at me i am looking for a new dr in town he said i could see my hepatologist without a referral which is news to me but i will be calling tuesday thanks for caring and it makes so much difference i have got to try for some sleep but i hope this finds you in good spirits and feeling alright let me know if there if there is ever something i can do for you sleep well
I have PTSD from sexual abuse as a child. I am 60 yrs old now and it came to the surface in the 1980's in panic attacks, anxiety and then many phobias. I found a perfect psychologist who I did behavior therapy with because I was almost unable to drive or leave my home but I did exactly what he told me to do and then confronted my parents and eventually lost my family but I had to do that to keep me alive.
All the symptoms you have talked about are ones that I either dealt with or still have and always will because of having PTSD. I can blow up at the drop of a hat, no one better come up behind me and even touch me if I don't know it is about to happen, etc. But I am living a great life and am so thankful for finding a great dr and therapist to get me through. I had to force myself to do things that I was so afraid to do but I gained back my confidence. Panic attacks deplete you of your confidence and you need to get that back.
If you have not talked with a therapist I encourage you to do so. It is not something you want to have rule your life. I am a survivor and proud of it. If I can help you in any way please just ask.
Susan