About 13 years ago, I was falsely convicted by my exwifes sole doing of vindication for retaining a gal pal so my child had a playmate.
Anyhow because my ex took the kids and moved away.
Anyhow she calls me saying somebody kidnapped her and my three toddlers kids. Of course my mind was racing, heart pounding, crying etc. It was extremely traumatic to the point of debilitating.
Next series of events... my exwife poisoned me with antifreeze immediately before talking to a detective in regards of our daycare provider abusing my child.
It turned out it was my exwife being the culprit. Another devastating blow.
My exwife turns her potential criminal conviction with over 45 counts pending, into a sex offense investigation on me.
To prove my innocence I took and passed a polygraph. Then offered "via advice from child services" a full psycho-sexual screening.
Its a full 72 hour battery of tests to determine if and what if any deviant behavior is present.
I think this was my breaking point......
Not knowing anything about the "test battery" I had no idea what I was in for.
They strap you down in full body restraints, head, feet, hands, arms, knees, except your waist area to attach a penile plethesmograph and to run cables from an EKG and they even hook up an EEG.
Creepy but not the worst parts ....
They hook wires upto your eyes to pull them open and place a gel eye moisturizing glob into your eyes.
They force you to watch soft porn like undressing. I don't watch porn so its kinda offensive to me. But wait.. it goes from adults of all types and races, genders, then it moves to children of all ages and gender. Under the "sedatives" they gave me, the only thing I could think of was. Where is that damn kids clothing, why would their momma let them walk around like that??
Anyhow it goes from very subtle to itty bitty babies being gang raped, then upto children being raped, mutilated, limbs being cut off and screaming ungodly in horrific pain. Then ultimately they move onto all of the above...including Nazi war goings on. But ultimately it goes from torture, to actual murdering of children of all ages them raping the dead bodies..
Thankfully I cried through most I could then to the point I was screaming so they ball gagged me. By the third day....I was a HUGE RAGING BALL OF FURY AND ANGER I've never fathomed any human could possibly reach that point of Rage...
Here's my current symptoms since then.
I'm extremely protective of children, better not be seen smacking your kid with me around, I loose it!!! Yelling only but aware of my possibility of physical violence.
Whenever I hear a little girl call for "daddy" in a store, I turn around expecting to see my "then toddlers".
For about three years I couldn't be around any child in the store because of them horrific things I was forced to watch. I would simply break down and cry very very painful tears.
I'm still a huge ball of hate, rage, zero tolerance attitude ..... except to my daughters .. my heart and soul feels at peace with them around. I'm very protective of them.