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[MontanaGurl]

Ok, here goes, I am not wanting to turn into a whiner again but, holy crud, is this ever gonna end.  I am using this as a partial question / vent session.  I was told by someone that there are several steps to the grieving process for a chronic pain patient.  I am not sure what stage I am in, I am stuck with being angry, sad, frustrated and just plain confused.  Alot of members on here have been involved in MVA's and I have read alot of posts and can feel the frustration and anxiety that we all suffer from.  Being in an accident takes part of you and I am not quite sure you ever get that part back.

I will get to my question now - I talked to my doc about my hip, she said she thought I had moved too much and take my meds as prescribed, if get's bad call her again and if still affecting me than on next appt, will look at possibly doing an injection.  I have begged my rheumy to start me back on my meds or on something to help with swelling as that may be the issue with my hip, he still wants to wait until the surgeon's give him the clear, the surgeon's dont want to make a call on that until I see them on the 24th of this month.  My back, is still aching and hurting in various ways, shapes and forms, I thought it was becaus i am out of my TLSO, well I put it back on and that was a huge mistake, still hurt and now feel like I have taken a step back.  I am taking all of my meds as  prescribed and honestly feel that now that I am off of my death bed that my docs are just wanting me to deal with it on my own.  Does this sound normal or am I belly aching?  I just feel like I need more help or information and just dont seem to get my questions fully answered.

Is it normal to feel like this stuff, like i stated above?  

[MontanaGurl]

I know it seems like I have given up sometimes but, in all actuality I ride the fence everyday.  sometimes feeling like such a failure for being physically impaired to accomplish the various things I should normally be doing.  My family and doc's know how I am with my moods and how I feel on both sides of the rainbow, they also know that  I love them both.

Hopefully the surgeon says that my rheumy can give me back my meds.  cross your fingers and toes and eyes :-)  but as bab's said, when you are in pain every minute feels like a lifetime so the few days to my appt seem a long way's away right now.

thanks for listening to me, somedays gets to be to much and i just explode all over everyone around me.  I know that I must be loved by my family cause they put up with me on those days! haa haa

til next time
montanagurl

[OtisDaMan]

The 24th is only a week away - no I'm mistaken, it is 6 days away East Coast time. So hang in there, try hard to be patient and wait until the surgeon has seen you. It sounds like they want to allow time for some healing before making a call on your condition.
Don't make assumptions (unintentionally) about what doctors may say at any appts, and try hard to be kind to them, even if you feel angry because of your situation. I don't mean that you shouldn't be assertive in seeking help from them, just try to be fair. In a way you are already doing that by using this forum as a sounding board, which is good.

Only on Monday I had an appt in Adelaide with a pain clinic doctor, and then another appointment 2 hours later with my workplace. It's a one hour trip from home to Adelaide. Well, I got there quarter of an hour early, as I try to do, and waited...and waited...and waited...and paced....stretched...waited...
Eventually he got there one and a half hours after my scheduled appt. Had to dial my workplace and cancel the meeting at the very last second, as I couldn't travel there in time. I was proud of myself afterwards for not losing my cool at all, even though I was in considerable pain by the time he saw me, and had to miss the work meeting. And by not letting anger develop from being kept waiting I managed to feel quite calm for the rest of the day.

Good luck with the mental side of the challenge; in some ways that is the hardest part to figure out, at least where chronic pain is involved.

Regards,

OtisDaMan

[Babs1469]

I don't know if it is normal to feel like that because you were in an accident but it certainly is normal to feel like that because you are human and in pain! Why are you always so hard on yourself? I swear sometimes it seems like if you are not up and cleaning the house and cooking 3 gourmet meals and ironing every curtain and waxing the car you have failed in someway. You are way too hard on yourself. the body is a complex machine and right now yours is broken, You need to give it time to heal and you need to be able to take that time without feeling guilty.

I know you are in pain hun, I know you want there to be some magic pill that you can take or some secret exercise that you can do to make all the pain go away at once. But there isn't. The pain will fade gradually, but you will most likley always feel something. Coming to grips with that is going to be hard. But I also know you can do it!!!

I don't understand why they wont give you a cortisone shot in your hip or at least some anti-inflamatory meds but you have to beleive there is a reason other then them expecting you to be all better already. That will only make you stress more and stress is one of our bodies worst enemies, I know, I'm nuerotic and stressed 24-7, I'm not doing myself any favors.

I hope someone posts who is going through or has gone through what you are so that they can give you some comfort and advice.  Remember, you are not alone like you stated you thought you were,

I hope you find the answers you seek and find them fast, when pain is involved a minute seems like an eternity. My heart goes out to you Lillian, I'm here if you need me.

XOXO
Babs