Not feeling sorry for myself anymore

[designgyrl]

I know some of you may think this was bad of me, but I just went on line and went over to the substance abuse hotline and read a lot of their posting and what they are going through.  They are going through h**** and it made me realize how good we have it over here and how we don't deal with the withdrawls like they do or the cravings.  I thank god that I don't have that problem.  So, I guess what I'm saying is, if you get depressed that your feeling ill, go over to that site and you'll be thankful for what you do have.  

[mellie4]

I often go to the substance abuse forum because I have such an interest in it, especially with my ex-husband's issues.  I think they're all very brave in dealing with addiction.  And there are people there who aren't addicted, just dependent, who got sick of being dependent and decided to go CT on their own.

Mollyrae, I have those thoughts, too.  I worry about it a lot.  I think because the one time when my prescription was late coming in the mail and I started going through withdrawals I get very antsy when my medication runs low.  (I never have them mail it anymore; now I pick it up.)

I have to have my prescriptions filled at Walgreens and I have two near me.  But this week when I went to get my prescriptions refilled, the one in my town was all out and didn't know when the next shipment would be.  The one in the next town was all out, too, but said they would order them and they should be in today.  Now that I'm on the Fentanyl patch, I won't go into withdrawals from not having the BT meds, but I would have to put up with increased pain.  (I still had some this time from my last script so I didn't have to do without.)

Now, if there were a disaster and I ran out of my Fentanyl patches, I don't know what I'd do.  I've heard those withdrawals are REALLY bad.  I can't imagine going through them CT.  Just the little experience I had with withdrawals from the oxycodone due to the late mail was enough to scare me to death!

[JadedSweetheart]

I have definetly had those same worries.  Even in my position now, where my doctor won't see me or help me while I'm having trouble with the medication prescribed and he is the only doctor I know of who will see a pregnant patient.  I honestly think I would change doctors if I could, but I am grateful that I at least have this option.  When I first found out about the pregnancy I was worried that I would be cut off and told to self-wean like the previous doctor told me to in the previous pregnancy.
As for a disaster situation, I suppose I would go where I needed to go to get to a hospital.  They would at least do something to help with withdrawls.
It's a scary thing to think about and with my General Anxiety Disorder I try not to worry about it.  I'd like to think that here in FL, if we knew we were getting a direct hit from a hurricane, the doctor would do something like write a script with a post-date.  I don't know if he would, though, and hurricanes in FL are so normal and so likely to go 50 miles one way or the other that it's hard to get real "preparedness" for them.  We are pretty good about disaster response here, though, and I think they set up clinics and tent- ERs for people who have not been able to get their meds.

[Mollyrae]

You are correct in that we are not addicted but, dependency is also no fun. Sometimes I think of the possibility of loosing my Doctor...would another Doctor treat me as wonderful?  Would he prescribe the necessary medications or the same medications that I'm currently taking? or would I find myself where a lot of ppl do, without a proper Doctor who knows me and my pain?

I find this rather scary and wish I was not dependant on these medications. So, I guess it's a catch 22 so to speak.

I would love nothing more than to rid myself of the addictive pain medications and be able to survive on a lesser medication.

I don't know why I think this way sometimes, I guess it's a constant fear in the back of my mind, always lurking.

Another scenario would be, what if there was some type of disaster where we could not get our medication. Something along the lines of Hurricane Katrina where you either lost your medication or it was impossible to get to. What would you or I do?

I have often thought this....have you?

My best,
Mollyrae