midlife crisis or crazy?

[MontanaGurl]

I am having a thought cross my mind, and has anyone ever felt like this or am I just weird?  I feel like between my pain and my medicine that both are running my life.  If I am not in pain I am taking a darn pill.  Geez, this is a sad life.  I think about how things used to be and what can I do to make myself feel somewhat normal.  I do try different things - just to experiment on whether or not I can do them and more than not, I can't do much.  No lifting, no walking, i like to read, but that is getting old and it used to be my favorite past time.  

Am I having a mid life crisis?  I told my therapist and she wants me to journal more, cripe by the time i am done i will have my own book for someone to read :-)

just venting - thanks for reading and any responses would be appriciated greatly

montanagurl

[nick30]

everyone's opinion of what normal is is usually different.
maybe ask yourself what would you normally be doing at this time of day(if things weren't the way they are). can you do that? or a reduced version of that? or find a substitute for whatever it was that you would normally be doing. beyond that i can't really think of anything.

Nick.

[Babs1469]

I don't think you are crazy at all. I know and understand everything you said and it *****. I just wish I could be a better mother to my daughter instead i'm constantly at the doctors or in the hospital on on the couch in agony. I think we need to figure out what is "Normal" for us now that our lives revolve around pain and pills. If you figure it out please let me know, But for now, just know you are not alone!